[Hunter Storm]

I stopped SI 4 years ago... I have always had the cravings... I thought I had beaten it.

But recently I have started again, This time it is way worse them before. The thing is I'm not even fully aware I'm doing it. I have never done drugs before but I think that when I SI it has the same affects. I get really giddy and happy when I for example start... I can't stop and I have to do more and more things to feel the same.

I am afraid I have become a SI addict and don't know how to stop. I Know I should, but I don't think I can or have the will power to.

Need help, as all the distractions that used to work... don't work any more. :'(

Thanks, Anything will be great!

[SoupDragon]

l stopped SI for 30 years before it started up again. l see a therapist to help explore my SI, l wonder if that is something you have considered? Stay safe, Soup

[smmath]

Please excuse my questions; I do that a lot :-) Anyway... What are recent triggers for SI? Are they similar to the ones you had when you did it 4 years ago? How did you stop then?

I get the same affects when I SI. I feel as though the good feelings last for days. So I understand how hard it is to stop. I think it is important though to remind yourself the reasons SI is not the best coping method.

Maybe try writing about how you feel when you want to SI, then later you can look at it and try to figure out what caused the thoughts.

I got the impression that you think you ruined all your progress. If I am wrong, sorry for misinterpreting. But, I think you need to know that you haven't ruined your progress. You don't have to start at square one.

Hang in there. I am here to listen if you want to talk

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

I stopped for about 5 years and then went on antidepressants again and I'm back at it. It's so hard when you thought you'd gotten beyond that.