Nothing is Sweeter

I guess I'd like some insight; it has been years since I have hurt myself in any way; but I'm starting to think that my condition has gotten worse since I've stopped.
I don't want to romanticize self injury, nor do I want anyone else to hurt but it felt like the only coping method that could bring me back to reality in a placid and calm state. I want to validate it, like I feel I can- but I know that's selfish and guilt will keep me from doing it again...then it gets tangled in a web of what I want, what I feel I deserve and how it feels as if I'm always bending to what other people want of me...because it always feels like the people I guilt myself over are the ones who drove me to such a state to begin with.
I'm sorry if this was an insensitive post- I really am. I guess I just want some views. Are we just addicted to something wrong and immoral? Does anyone think that an open minded study should be done on this subject? Or am I just making a big deal out of nothing?

I do not think self harm is neither "wrong" or "immoral".

(in opposite order).....

Not that I am a Biblical expert (cuz I am not) - but nowhere could I find a reference of self harm. There are comments about tatoos and jewelry - but that is clearly not what we are talking about. So "morally" - I see no issue at all.

"wrong" - no. If you said ideal.?.?.? Then I would have to admit that self harm is clearly not ideal. It is just **functional** for some of us. Most shrinks will call it dysfunctional. I say - until you learn a better skill - it is the best you the individual can do. It is like asking a "mentally challenged" person to do calculus. It may be a great idea, but it isn't likely to give you the results you want.

Did that rambling make any sense?

First of all, that you so much for your input; it means a great deal.
Yes, it does make sense. But I suppose it's hard for me to understand how medication can be something that is openly accepted, with all it's flaws but something that's been used for centuries can be so shunned. I'll admit, it isn't going to fix the problem and again, I'd hate to think than anyone does it, but I can't help but feel that it's taboo the way most of the other things I hold so important are seen. (I live an alternative lifestyle) I'm not trying to make a law about it, or anything; I would rather no one do it; I just can't help but wonder if it's problematic because it's really hazardous or if it's just not what society wants to see?