[Fuzzybear]

I didn't want to make a "fuss" in my post in Depression, or to worry anyone. Things are very bad here though. I've been feeling very scared and traumatised by some issues and events in my life, including my husband's health.(although he is better than he was now, I am not ...) In fact, things have been really bad since my father's death earlier this year.... I'm only now making the link.

For the last few months I've been really struggling to function anywhere near "normal" in real life ..... recently in particular I've been curled up in a ball on the bed just trying to survive a lot of the time I'm not sure what's going on... I can only think that it's partly old trauma that has come back to haunt me. I feel so so scared and depressed. I'm trying not to cut. I was traumatised by my former therapist and also by a counsellor but things are so bad now that I have no option but to insist on professional help (having been fobbed off too many times by various NHS doctors, and private shrinks too) I have underplayed my distress when seeing these people.... and taking (mega doses of) meds beforehand (diazepam) meant that my extreme and distressing anxiety wasn't so apparent

But now things are so bad that I can't continue to "cope" as I have done... badly I know. I have to get real time, "real life" help. There have to be some good doctors out there although I have seen many who I've found worse than useless. I put in an emergency call to my local GP practice today and they said they will call me back.

Like I said, I won't be posting for a while (and maybe never).... I am probably too emotionally vulnerable and fragile for the internet. I hope I'll be able to keep in touch with some of my friends I've made here privately.

Love,
Fuzzy

[therealme]

fuzzy, i have been to that place you are now,and i know its no fun ride. i hope you find your way and get some real time help. if you dont post again then i just want to say i for one will miss you
take care fuzzy (uk) bear
dec xox
ps, you can pm me anytime if you want to chat

I put in an emergency call to my local GP practice today and they said they will call me back.

[nothemama8]

Fuzzy we understand , hibernate and we'll be here when you feel up to posting again
Love ya
Angie

[Rapunzel]

(((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))

You have offered to share your cave with me in the past when I needed to hide. Come hang out with me if you like. I'm getting a new cave that will be harder to hide in, but that will be good. We need sunlight too. I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now, but glad that you are going to find someone to help you. I know that you will emerge from this hibernation period stronger than ever. You are strong.

All my love,
Rap

[jacq10]

((((Fuzzy)))) Please take good care of yourself .. and know that I am here if you want to pm.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))))))) Please take care of yourself. I know I will miss you greatly but do understand. I hope you find a great T who will help you heal. If and when you are ready I will be around. Be kind to yourself.

[silver_queen]

((((((((((((((( Fuzzy )))))))))))))))))

Things sound very hard for you now Perhaps you are finally going to get some good help on the NHS. After all, you do deserve it.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hoep you find a good Dr and therapist that can help you cope with your issues. Keep a journal and stay focused on trying to get the help for your mental health treatment that you need to be better and more capable. Take care sincerely Soidhonia.

[wanting]

Fuzzy i know what you mean about not feeling up to posting,well at least i think i do.I understand and wish you all the best in finding yourself some help,i know how hard that is especially on the NHS ,where you have to demand help in order to get any.Good luck,i hope to see you back here someday though you help a lot of us here.x

[Fuzzybear]

Blue
Rain
Crimson
Splashes
Regrets
Deepest
Water Drowning
Why not

[Sarah116]

I hope you feel better soon! Let God be with you.