I have been "cut free" for about 6 months now. It has been a daily struggle but I have been doing really good. But the last few days, I have had the urge to cut and its been hard not to. So much in my life has been spiraling out of control and I feel like I am losing my mind. I have tried everything I can to keep myself from cutting but I am losing the battle. Tonight, I actually broke open my shaving razor and held the blade in my hand for 10 minutes. I really dont want to go back to cutting. Last time I cut myself, I needed stitches cause I cut way too deep. I am afraid to cut again because I am afraid that I will really hurt myself.

But I am scared. The urge to cut is so strong right now. I could really use some advice or someone to talk to.

[smmath]

I'm sorry the urges are back. Feel free to message me if you want to talk. I am smarter than I sound right now.

I dont know how to message anyone on here besides through these messages. But I would love to talk. Can you message me first?

[hayleytheherbivore]

Hey there, listen. Deep breaths. 6 months is a long time. You don't want to go back down the road you're running from. Remember why you haven't for so long and hold onto that.

Get a notepad. Write down the cost-benefit analysis of cutting. Is it worth it? Will your impulses matter to you in 5 minutes? 5 hours? 5 years?

Get your hands busy. Recognize WHY you want to cut and why you like it. Do something you're passionate about, distract yourself with funny stuff online and by all means, avoid the negativity you might be faced with.

You've come so far, don't give it up now! Get someone to throw the razors away for you. Go be with someone to keep you safe. Good luck.

See, thats part of the problem. Nothing is making me happy anymore. All the stuff I used to love to do, just seems stupid now. I dont even get on facebook anymore and that used to be my " go to" place. The only thing I seem to be passionate about anymore is my boyfriend......and well.......having a boyfriend is part of my issues right now!!

[Stronger]

Get some INTENSE exercise.
Hold ice in your hands
Put a lemon slice under your tongue
Peel an orange (surprisingly more helpful than you might think)
Write. It doesn't have to be serious, or it can be, just let it flow
It's these insane urges that you think you'll never get through that will help you prove to yourself that you really can overcome this!
Figure out exactly what it is that made you feel like you wanted to SI. Take that and make it into a drawing of a monster or something and then burn it or tear it into shreds.
You can do this!!!