life is just to hard for me

i cant stop cutting when i get home , when im with friends, just had a personal shower and i gave all my energy to it and acted more then fun not im in my room cutting and having a panic attack of some sort cause im shakings super hard again like when i went to hospital ohhhhh i cant even breath right...... i cant stop cuting right now my hands are bloody typing on my keys ohhhh i wish i could stop shaking so hard ohhhh i just want to go back t the hospital and have someone take care of me please. now im crying ........ thats all i wanted was to cry ........ why did it take cutting to cry now .........????? i feel terribleS!!!!!

Can you call a crisis line or get to the ER?

Sending love and hugs your way. Let me know if you want someone to talk to.

Hi bazzinga, it is really, really good that you're able to reach out to us and we are here for you, but it sounds like you need a little more support too.
Emotions can sometimes build up so much and it can be a lot easier said than done expressing them/managing them when you're feeling so much pressure leaving you with fewer and fewer options.
Obviously you don't want to be cutting but............
So do you think you could make a phone call, when you're ready (assuming you're not in any immediate danger!!) to a helpline or the hospital. Remember you haven't failed if you need more help, it's just that things are getting too much for you right now.
There's absolutely nothing wrong with asking for more help, the one/the only important thing is for you to be supported in getting through this. And you are so worth all the help it takes to get there. So you are not alone there are people who can help, you deserve that help. Just let them know how things are for you in the same way you're telling us. It may be really hard, but you know you shouldn't have to be feeling this way.
Here for you
Alison