I think it's time to give in

I think it's gonna be one of those nights. I can feel it building. It's been a long time. But I don't think I can fight much longer. I'm sure cutting will help right now....Because I'm thinking all those crappy thoughts of suicide so yeah...cutting will be better right?

Aww honey, I am so sorry you are struggling. Message me if you want to talk. I am here for you.

I say cutting always makes better, but i know that's not helpful. :-\
Hugs to you and hang in there.

Is being weak and giving in such a bad thing?

((((((secret)))))))

Cutting doesn't mean you're being weak. You are being STRONG for resisting those suicidal thoughts and trying to take care of yourself the best way you know how. I know the feeling of knowing that cutting is inevitable... just try and be as safe as you can if it comes down to it. Now is the time to reach out to others....

Stay safe,
Jacq

As Jacq said cutting doesn't mean your weak.
(((((secretwhisper)))))
Stay safe.

(((((((( secretwhisper ))))))))

Whatever keeps you safe. Just know there could be guilt, or other feelings that are just as bad. Or is that just me?

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Well... yes, Secretwhisper. Cutting is better than suicide. At least with cutting you're still here. And, as they say in mindfulness practice: "As long as you're breathing, there's more right with you than wrong with you." I have things I give in to from time-to-time. I can't help it. I hate myself afterward. But I also know that it's just a matter of time before I do it again. So there's no point in beating myself up over it too much. Please be careful though. As I'm sure you know, cutting can create it's own problems...

I would tell to to try and avoid doing it but I shouldn't be giving advice cause I have the same problem. But please be careful.

Whatever happens tonight, try to love yourself. Or at least feel the love that this board is sending you! *hug*

Hey. I hope you are doing OK. Please let us know if you're safe?

((Secretwhisper))

Hi. I'm ok. Well I'm not ok. But I'm safe. I feel even worse today than I did yesterday, everything has gone dark and I'm not coping. Just want to curl up into a ball and disappear.

Why does that mirror my thoughts.
Hang in.
(((((secret))))))

Thanks, you too!

I feel so desperate. I am so ****ing miserable. I can't keep doing this. I just wish I was alone right now so I could do what I need to. Why can't I just be left to my own devices?

Yes, I guess I'm sort-of in the same place tonight. On the other hand... maybe it's just as well I'm not alone...