[dreamer62604]

I cut today, it had been about a week or more since the last time. So much for that. I want to cut again, and again, and again. I am so tired of everything right now. I just want to go away. I have been sleeping a lot, partly because I am sick, and partly because of the depression. I started seeing my new therapist on Friday. She seemed pretty nice, and willing to try to help me. I don't know how that will work, because I think that I may be past help. I dunno, I guess we'll see. Sorry to bother.


[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]

[Zenobia]

Dreamer, you are not a bother. I am sorry you hurt yourself again but I am glad you were able to make it a week. That is good. I am so glad you seem to like your new therapist. Try to think possitively about her ability to help you. I know you feel beyond help right now but that is just the depression talking. You can get help in helping yourself. You can do it. You have done it in the past. Has something happened recently that triggered this cutting episode?
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft