[Christina86]

ARGH.

Well, people should be happy to know that I survived the research and almost entire completion of my essay on religious self-mutilation without SIng. Yay!

Unfortunately, if I don't get a hold of my sanity soon it's going to happen again... you know that feeling of somethnig bad that's going to happen, and you're just stuck waiting for it to ambush you?

That's where I'm at. I can't deal with the thoughts, the anxiety attacks, my mood swings and the stress I'm under all at the same time anymore.

I need it. I miss it. I want it. I just don't know where the motivation temporarily disappeared to.

Now THAT is sad and pathetic.

Christina the sad, pathetic, whiney, mopey, self-centred twit.

grrrrrrrrrr.

[jacq10]

(((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))

Congrats on finishing your paper, i know that couldn't have been an easy thing to do.

I know what it feels like to feel the "bad stuff" coming on .. but, the way i see it, its good that you can tell. You know that maybe right now you're more vulnurable to feeling down, so do things that will make you feel better, or at least distract you. Focus on your breathing .. a very special person once told me that how you breathe is how you live.

You can get through this, you are a strong girl even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes. You know that you can call/write/msn me if you ever want to talk, or just need someone to listen.

Take good care of you,
Jacq

[lenjan]

(((((((Christina))))))) Congratulations on quite a big accomplishment. I'm proud of you!

I hope you can find something to help ward off the bad feeling. I don't have any good ideas, though. I'm kind of useless that way.

Good job, girl. Hang in there.

Love, candy

[Christina86]

Thanks to two of my most favourite gals

((((((((((((((Jacq)))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((Candy))))))))))))))

I went to bed at 3:30 am because I couldn't stay awake any longer. It's still not done, and yet here I sit. I just need to do referencing. blah, references.

Thank you both for responding, even if I was whining.



I'm gonna have to tell my T about this, whether I want to or not. He should know, even if he doesn't seem to much like any talk of it.

[Rapunzel]

I know that "something's going to happen" feeling. When you're more vulnerable, I guess you need to take extra good care of yourself, and, yeah, let T know what's going on. I wish you well getting through this. You can do it.

I was in a similar place a few weeks ago, and more and more things kept piling on top, and it got to be too big for me to handle. I held out for a while. My T doesn't seem to want to focus on SI either, and we don't usually bring that up, but I did tell her what happened, and she was good with it this time. I think it's the way you talk about it, and the purpose.

You'll make it.

Rap

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))))

[Soidhonia]

Hello Canders.
CONGRATULATIONS on your paper. I hope things get better for you soon PLEASE call your therapist to help you through the rough time you are having now. Take care Canders. PM anytime Soidhonia

[Christina86]

Thanks

(((((((((((Rapunzel)))))))))))))
(((((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))))))))
(((((((((Soidhonia))))))))))))))

My prof is the chaplain of the university, so he sees a bit of me - he saw me today, asked me about the paper, and I told him that it was done but that I felt it was missing something. So he gave me an extension until tomorrow by 3pm! Yay!

Sometimes it really helps that your T knows your prof lol.

Almost had an anxiety attack today, but at least no extreeme urges to SI. But I'm waiting ...

Thanks everyone for your support (((((((((((everyone)))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))) Yay on your paper. What an accomplishment. I am sorry that you are still struggling. I wish I had some good ideas but know I am here if I can do anything.

[Christina86]

Thanks ((((((((((bipolar_bear)))))))))))))

Take it one day at a time I guess? I dunno. I just hope it doesn't get really bad again.

hey, we're here.............holding your hand.......love ya, pat

[Christina86]

(((((((((Pat))))))))))))

You wonderful person... thanks.



I just need to tell T tomorrow what's up, then survive until after exams, and then after my vacation ... and then I should be good. It's only TWO BLEEPING MONTHS.

Argh. I stress myself out.

[lil_bit]

congratulations on your paper! that really does show that you are a strong person through all things.
I can totally relate to the "sensing of impending problems" idea. Sometimes i wonder if our awareness of that "sense" isn't something that might bring about/intensify the onset of pain? hmm...

well congrats anyways (((canders)))

[Christina86]

Thanks (((((((((lil_bit)))))))))