This is crazy.....

*Trigger* pregnancy issues

I have now gone 31 days without SI, usually I can do two to three days so this is great for me! I have been feeling quite proud of myself, when I am thinking logically....and very scared when I am not logical, because I owe all these days, what will the payback be? At least when I SI it only hurts me...

These thoughts have been popping up, I talked to t about them too. I have been unwell the past couple of weeks too, dizzy and sicky and tired...

I think I have been pregnant, and now am most obviously not. Don't want to give you horrible details and trigger anyone, but I feel bad and crampy too, as well as the obvious other stuff. I was not intending to get pregnant, and have an IUD.

Did I cause this? Is that the payback? I know that's a crazy thought...I know that, but I still can't help thinking it. What now? If I don't SI, what will happen next? I'm sorry, I know this is so illogical, but I feel so guilty.

You have nothing to feel guilty for and something to be grateful for. You don't know that you were pregnant and with an IUD the possibility that you were is very low. And also, You should be grateful that you have not SI. I can only imagine how difficult that is for you but you have gone without for quite some time now and I am happy to see that. It might seem like there should be payback to you but I think there should be reward instead. You have done a good thing!!!!