[sadeyesr4ever]

Sure I cut but I also like to get in punching contests with the kids or husband so that they will hit me repeatedly in the arm until it is hurting and bruised. I will keep the bruises hidden but I keep doing it over and over again. Am I totally weird or what?

[Rapunzel]

It sounds like your are reenacting a situation in which you get hurt by other people. I do similar things, getting others to hurt me somehow. I'm curious. Do you tend to identify with victims, or see yourself as a perpetual victim? I'm wondering if there is a connection that way. My husband ,once he has become aware of what I do, resents being forced in to the role of an abuser. Your family may not recognize the pattern yet, but you might want to consider how it will affect them over time.

I certainly do relate to it, as I often have a preference for being hurt by someone else rather than having to do it myself.

[sadeyesr4ever]

Thank you very much for your reply! Now I know I am not the only one.

[Talulah]

HI sadeyes...........i used to bruise and hit myself, even on my face. I hit myself either with objects or my own fists. After no SI-ing for many years I've circled back around and rather 'enjoy' when I suddenly get bruised in real life. It brought back that feeling......however, now I wished others did it to me. I want that more than to do it to myself. I know I sound creepy, guess I'm sharing this so you know you're not the only one.....

[sadeyesr4ever]

I hear you and can relate Talulah, as soon as my bruises heal on my arms (they are bad) I am going to get my daughter into another punching contest. I never hit myself, but I do like cutting myself. The more damage I can do the more I like!

[Talulah]

Please take care, even though I understand, I want you to be safe and ok. Try to be good to you.

((((((((((((((((((sadeyes)))))))))))))))))))))))

[StargazerLily]

I think this is why I keep trying to get my boyfriend to fight with me. He's a big muscle guy, wrestled through high school and in the army, so its not like I could do anything to him. The only time I could ever get a reaction out of him, I was drunk and trying to get to my keys, or to his kitchen drawer and he threw his arms around me while I just kicked and screamed. Still just wanna fight him.

Grrr

[sadeyesr4ever]

I don't think I would want my boyfriend hitting on me. Be careful who you pick on! He sounds like a nice guy, really. (((hugs)))

[StargazerLily]

He is a really great guy, and he wouldnt even ever think of doing that, he's the guy that goes after the other guys that do that kind of BS. it doesnt make any sense that i would want him to.

[sadeyesr4ever]

He sounds like a really great guy, enjoy him! not too many men like him anymore!

[sujunew]

I never thought of this as SI until a few weeks ago. My young daughter (7) has many major health issues and behavioural problems (she was most recently suspended from school 2 weeks ago). With this comes very physical attacks (which often lead to her suspensions, and which took her away from me for 2 years to ensure her younger sister's safety). The bruises etc that I constantly endure from her scare many ppl as they are so bad yet I never stop her doing it to me (usually when she is going to bed at night). I sit on her bed while she does it all to me, (kinda) enjoying it and reminding myself that I deserve it.