Today I confessed to my T that I SI, and that I did it again last Saturday. I don't SI often, maybe once a month or so, and more in an attempt to find something that makes me feel better - invariably SIing doesn't help so I quit until the next time I'm desperate. Anyway, I promised T I wouldn't do it again (she didn't make me promise, although she did press a little). I always keep my promises.. so I should say good-bye to SIing.

I hope you are able to keep your promise, but don't beat yourself up over it if you can't. Best to continue being honest with your T, no matter what happens

[purplek0ala]

Congrats on being open and honest about it. That had to take a lot of courage. It also must have been a weight off your shoulders.
It's always best to be hopeful that you're done and that it's behind you. But also acknowledge that you can go back to it at any time, as you know. And that's okay.
It's an easy addiction. Painfully easy to fall back into old patterns. Especially at a time of desperation.
Just always remember, that if you can stop once, you can do it again. Mainly try to find other outlets so that you do it less and less.
Best of luck to you! It's a hard fought battle, but you can win.

[i dont matter]

best wishes to you..... not only on your promise but in general.

but remember - you are NOT God. You will make mistakes. Do not beat yourself up too much if you stumble.