[asylumgardens]

I just got like really really really hurt (emotionally) by someone. I don't get why people act a certain way if they don't feel it, really, especially knowing how I do feel. I know that doesn't make senses, but the point is I am in immense pain, and I really want to cut myself, but I promised the one person who knows that I do it that I would try to stop, so here I am, trying to stop. I just need something to get past how horrible I feel in this moment. It doesn't really feel like writing any of this out is helping at all.

[bipolar_bear]

I hope you got through your urges to SI. There is a sticky at the top of the forum for ideas of what to do that you may want to read next time. Maybe there is something there that will help you thorugh. Take care.

BB

[Direction]

Is this in response to the friend you really like more than a friend?

[asylumgardens]

Thanks bipolar.. I did get through it, I just took one of my sleeping pills and went to sleep instead. I will look at that list right now just to have them on my mind.

And it's not Direction, it's someone else that I've had this back and forth relationship with for years.. it's very unhealthy for me mentally, but I can't seem to stop it.. which is part of the reason I want to get into a relationship with someone else, because when I do, this other person becomes a much significant part of my life.