[gostryter]

cut myself today (nothing life threatening) just lots of small cuts. i had to see the pain. i know i feel it. i'm trying to tell people about it, but they don't seem to get it. so i had to see it.

i made an appt w/ a T, but when i got there i chickened out and said i changed my mind. he said that was my choice.

two days later i went to my primary care physician. told him i was having trouble dealing with some stuff like work. he gave me the rest of the week off, added an antidepressant and said he'd refer me to a T - but that it could be a couple months before i get an appt.

i'm trying to reach out...but failing at that miserably...like i fail at everything i do. why can't people see??

hope this doesn't upset anyone!!

[beelieving]

Hi gostryter,

I’m sorry you’re struggling. Just want you to know that I’m sending you thoughts of peace and comfort. I’m glad you got time off of work to take care of your needs. I’ve found that the people in my life don’t understand my struggle with SI. So, I tend to find more support through people who are actually struggling with it or who’ve recovered from it. SI is hard to get through alone so keep sharing. And I hope your process in getting a therapist doesn’t drag out too long for you. Take care and be kind to yourself.

Hugs. ~ Bee