dead modems, blinking computers and mercury retrograde

Sorry I was gone a couple of days. I had a whopper of a sucky Wednesday. I got up to get on the computer in the morning to do some banking--I needed to transfer funds so I wouldn't bounce a check--and my modem wouldn't connect to the internet. It just sat there staring at me stupidly. ARGH! So I had to use phone banking which stinks. Then I went back to bed for 15 minutes to start my day over. My husband was so proud. Ha ha.

Then I went to work to use that computer so I could do a book order for the store. I worked on it for about 10 minutes and the computer suddenly started blinking off and on. My boss and I couldn't figure out what was wrong so I had to leave and go home because it was actually my day off and I was doing the order on my time. I was quite irritated.

Then I went to the store and I knew I had to pay part cash and part check because I didn't have enough in either to buy what I needed. Of course when I got to check out the lines were long so I went into U-Scan. Duh. I just went ahead and wrote a check for the groceries figuring I would just go to the bank that was located in the store and deposit the money. I got the slip at the bank filled out and dug in my purse and discovered that I didn't have as much cash in my purse as I thought I did. ARGH!

I was so frustrated by the time I got in the car--Warning the next part is woo woo spiritual stuff, please skip it if it bothers you--so I am sobbing as I am driving. Not the smartest thing to be doing I know. And I am thinking about how much I want to see blood run from my wrists and just spiralling down into the painful oblivian and becoming frightened by what is happening. So I cry out "Goddess please help me!" Immediately, Jennifer White on the radio announces that the next song is "yellow" by Cold Play. She starts the disk and I listen to the lyrics with tears streaming down my face thinking what a wonderful message for spirit to send me.
Look at the stars,
See how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

Well you get the drift. I don't know how the song goes but it was a beautiful thing to hear just at that moment. I know it is all coincidence but it was what I needed.

I went home and puttered around the house, read my book. When I got the kids home I made cookies with my daughter and then cooked a yummy black bean soup. I was going to be ok.

Yesterday, the computer guy worked on the store computer. He couldn't find anything wrong with it. I told him about what happened with my modem. At that point a customer chipped in that mercury is in retrograde so I thought that figures. My co-worker piped in Nah, it is just that Carrie was in retrograde. We all had a laugh.

Today Hubby and I went and got the new modem. I got it set up without to much difficulty. Now I am going to head out to visit my sister. I am scared. I am putting off leaving. This post wouldn't be so long if I hadn't been putting off leaving. Please send your good thoughts my way. I will only be seeing her a few hours but it could go so wrong...Wait! lets think possitively. It could be a wonderful growth oppurtunity for both of us. I am strong and I am good and I am well. I will be ok.
Love ya all,
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft

You are strong, good and well, I definitely believe that. Sorry you had a sucky Wednesday, but what serendipity ... I love that song. I am sending you all my best thoughts,

((((((((Carrie))))))))

Love,
Fuzzy

******* sending good vibes and all that good Karma thingies your way*******
I hope it helps

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take time to heal thyself before trying to help others, or you will never get better

{{{{{{{{{Carrie}}}}}}}}}}}

Sending good thoughts! I hope that your visit with your sister goes well.
Wendy

<font color=orange>"Never forget: 2 + 2 = 5 for extremely large values of 2."</font color=orange>

Sorry you had such a crappy Wednesday. Proud of you for handling it the way you did! You did great. You are strong!

(((((((((((((you))))))))))))

Thanks Everyone for your support. The trip went ok. I mean it really did go ok. I will write about it tomorrow. It is late now I should go to bed. I just wanted you all to know I was doing well.
Carrie

Oh, and I won $100 playing pull tabs.

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft