[kimboboo]

I'm having a rough time today and need some support. I really want to cut. The urge hasn't been this intense in a long time. I called my therapist and she called me back to let me know she had a full schedule until 9:00 tonight, but would call after that. I don't know if I can make it. I really don't want to cut (I've only cut one weekend in the last 15 months), but don't have the ambition to do anything else to distract myself.
What's really frustrating me is I can't figure out what triggered this intensity. I've really become pretty good at identifying stressors and triggers. I just don't know what to do this time.

Kim

[Rapunzel]

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I don't know how to stop you from cutting when you want to, but thought I'd send what support I could, and at least let you know that I'm here and listening.
Wendy

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[kimboboo]

thanks for the support.

[LadyDragus]

ok, do you have a journal..
I know i say this to a great deal of you in SI, but it does help me out a lot..

Think of what has happend over the last few days, and write it out, put in down on paper, see why you have the sudden urge to do this ...

Then when you find out why, ask yourself why is this buggin me?
Why am I letting it win?
I am stronger than that, I knwo I can beat this

I know I shoudl not be saying that, since I have fallen, after 15 years, but I have re-stared it back up again and it is helping me.. so maybe it will help you..

pm me if you think it would help to talk to somone who has fought it for longer peroids

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take time to heal thyself before trying to help others, or you will never get better

[kimboboo]

Thanks for the suggestion. I do have a journal that I write in consistently. I also find that it helps a lot. I talked with my therapist on the phone and she helped me straighten it out a little, still want to cut, but I understand the reason a bit better - if she's right.

[LadyDragus]

well that is a good thing.. Understanding the reason is the frist step.. but if you do not fully understand it ... Question yourself more..
Do online research on the topic, to see if you can better understand it..
That is what also hleps me..
Find out as much as you can about what triggers you, find out why it does, and see if you do other things so it wont trigger you again..

We have to fight this any way we can.. Right
My ways may not help, but you can try them, and if not, try something eles..



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take time to heal thyself before trying to help others, or you will never get better