[Eldoggo]

I'm new here and latley I've been stugging a lot. I've always wondered if I had depression. I have myself with a passion. I can't stand the way I look, act, think and behave. I'm always sad with the way things are going in life even though I shouldn't be. I live an average life. I've signed to play soccer for a 2 year college. Have two parents who both work. Have plenty of friends. I've never been abused in my life. Yet I still hate my parents. For some odd reason I can not stand them. I never tell them anything personal and try and avoid them. Just being with them makes me a weird nervous feeling that makes me almost want to cry. And all of this is a natural feeling I've had since I was a kid. Another problem of mine is ive been cutting myself. It's something that I've never thought of doing. Now it has become a daily thing. I think of it as a way to punish myself for being who I am. Usually at night I cry and think about everything that's wrong with me, and cut. Not enough to where I bleed but enough to leave marks and feel a good amount of pain. I really want to see a psychologist or therapist of some sort. But I can't explain to my parents , because of what I have explained earlier. I can't and won't tell them anything personal. I need help before my self harm gets worse. I don't know how much longer I can live the way I am now. If anyone reads this , does it seem I have depression or anxiety problems ? Is seeing a therapist really worth it ? And can I even be helped ?

Hello Eldoggo, I see this is your first post so welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit.

I think you could definitely benefit from seeing a therapist. If you are attending school, you can seek help through a school counsellor. If you're an adult, you can go to a clinic yourself and get a referral to see a therapist, psychiatrist, psychologist...someone who can help. You deserve happiness, and I wish you all the best.

[AmandaBroken]

Hi, My name is Amanda and I want to Welcome you to the Forum at Psych Central.

I have only been at Psych Central for a short time, but I have found that this place is an excellent resource for help and healing. The people here truly have a desire to help you work through whatever needs you are facing.

We are peer support group and we can offer help in many areas. Are you Bi-Polar go to the Bi-polar section https://forums.psychcentral.com/bipolar/ are you a person who Self-Harms go to https://forums.psychcentral.com/self-injury/ Do you have PTSD then go here https://forums.psychcentral.com/post-traumatic-stress/ and if you have Anxiety or Panic attacks go here https://forums.psychcentral.com/anxiety-panic-phobias/ There are places here for virtually every need and every problem.

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