I have a goal...

AmandaBroken · Mar 26, 2017, 01:01 PM

I am a college student in Colorado. This spring I will graduate with a double major. A bachelor's degree in both History and Psychology. The history degree was easy. The Psych degree was a lot of work. I am again at the top of my class and have been working on my speech for some time. I will start my Master's program in June. I am doing a double major again. In History and Counseling. Again the history degree will be easier than the counseling degree. It will take 2 years before I will be done. The hard part is the required hours of counseling. Even before I can start I have to go 6 months without cutting.

Today is 3 weeks without cutting. It has not been easy. I think my best ever was a month. Please pray for me that I will be able to do this and come September start my internship.

Bill3 · Mar 27, 2017, 08:46 AM

I will pray for you.

(((((AmandaBroken)))))

AmandaBroken · Mar 27, 2017, 12:51 PM

Today is Three Weeks and One Day...

Bill3 · Mar 27, 2017, 03:15 PM

You have a good start!

What helps you stay away from cutting?

AmandaBroken · Mar 27, 2017, 03:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bill3

You have a good start!

What helps you stay away from cutting?

Determination. My goal to be a Psychologist. I think that is my driving force.

But I also think Anna, my girlfriend has made a difference. Since she has moved in the need to cut has diminished. Her being here also helps I have instant help, someone to talk to.

Bill3 · Mar 27, 2017, 04:09 PM

Thanks for your response! I am so glad that you have that determination and in-house support!

I will continue to pray for you, and for Anna as well. Please post from time to time and let us know how you are doing!

AmandaBroken · Mar 27, 2017, 04:19 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bill3

Thanks for your response! I am so glad that you have that determination and in-house support!

I will continue to pray for you, and for Anna as well. Please post from time to time and let us know how you are doing!

I will...

AmandaBroken · Mar 28, 2017, 12:25 PM

Today is Week Three, Day Two...

AmandaBroken · Mar 29, 2017, 04:24 PM

Today is Week Three Day Three...

Mar 30, 2017, 09:49 AM

Keep it up, you're doing great!

AmandaBroken · Mar 30, 2017, 04:13 PM

Today is Week Three Day Four...

It was a good day. Mostly resting. Will skip the run today. I have never missed this much school before. But it has been nice.

AmandaBroken · Mar 31, 2017, 05:40 PM

Today is Week Three Day Five...

It was a perfect day. Last day I will miss from school. I think I have recovered from my last collapse. I will start running again tomorrow full strength. I will resume my swimming on Monday.

I can do this... My initial goal was 30 days. Almost there...

Bill3 · Mar 31, 2017, 09:17 PM

You can do it!

Congratulations on your accomplishments so far!

Bill3 · Apr 01, 2017, 12:15 AM

I continue to pray for you and Anna.

AmandaBroken · Apr 01, 2017, 10:57 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bill3

I continue to pray for you and Anna.

Thanks Bill...

AmandaBroken · Apr 01, 2017, 08:00 PM

I was very lazy today. I sat here on the computer and played silly games all day. Anna is visiting her parents this weekend and I really miss her. She only moved in a few weeks ago but she has been a big part of my life. Tomorrow will be another long day. I am going to try checking out a new church. My sister and I are going out for dinner tonight. So I'm not really alone.

I had no thoughts of cutting today.

Week Three Day Six

It has been getting easier

Bill3 · Apr 01, 2017, 08:17 PM

Keep up the great work!

AmandaBroken · Apr 02, 2017, 04:41 PM

Week Four... 28 days... 2 more days to tie the highest goal I ever made. 3 to beat my best...

It was a good day. Anna is home and things are looking good.

Bill3 · Apr 02, 2017, 04:58 PM

Thanks for letting us know!

You are doing really well!

AmandaBroken · Apr 03, 2017, 06:40 PM

This could not have been a worst day. Maybe I should not say that. It could have been worst. It started bad. I had to explain to my teachers why I was going to be out another week. But they all understood. But I started shaking anyways. my place as the top student is not in jeopardy. But when I got home I was hit by wave after wave of terrible thoughts. Suicidal thoughts, cutting thoughts. I took some sleep meds and went to bed but woke up trembling and shaking. It only got worst. I was afraid I would collapse and I feared that. A friend took me out for coffee and I was shaking badly through most of the time. When I got home it continued. Then I started playing games here and an innocent post made me cry. Weep is more likely. Then Anna came home and I am still shaking but a little more control...

Today is 29 days. My best is 30 days. The immediate goal is 31... Almost there...