[Nike007]

I have been dealing with a lot of SH this past week. Whenever it's nighttime and I am alone (so Su-Th), I get these urges, and it feels like I am being screamed at by them. I am unsure exactly why it's been worse this week. Maybe it's because of school, as it's getting closed to finals and I have a lot of work to do, and I haven't been doing anything, or if it's because I feel overwhelmed by everything going on around me or what, but it hasn't been the best. I have tried distractions, but it doesn't work, as i will just do stuff while using distraction techniques.

Recently I talked to a friend, and they gave me a few things, and it has kinda helped. I feel more supported now. I don't know what to do at the moment. Maybe I'll look up some things online.

My pdoc is for harm reduction while my therapist isn't exactly, like, if I do, I shouldn't feel bad about it, but if I don't for x amount of time, then you can reward yourself I guess.

Just needed to find people to relate to on this.

[Wild Coyote]

I hear you. It must be tough to resist SH.

I hope your friend was helpful.
Did you find some additional distraction ideas?

How are you doing now?


WC

I hope you can resist the urges but I know how hard it is

[Nike007]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I hear you. It must be tough to resist SH.


I hope your friend was helpful.

Did you find some additional distraction ideas?


How are you doing now?




WC

I have recently tried the cold shower thing. It is really a shock to my body. But after this shower it was still bad. I called a friend, and then things kinda got fine from there.

I haven’t done anything for 4 days, which I know is good. I generally don’t SH on weekends, and Thursday I had my friend help me. I get worse at night, so I try my best to fall asleep ASAP. This is something I’ve been struggling with, as my sleeping medications haven’t been working the past few days. Maybe I’ll do what my pdoc previously told me and see how this works.

Thank you for your response.

[possum220]

How are you faring now? Scream into your pillow if you must. Rip paper up and I mean heaps of it to get the emotions out. Run as far as you can....

Try what your p'doc said.

[Nike007]

Originally Posted by possum220

How are you faring now? Scream into your pillow if you must. Rip paper up and I mean heaps of it to get the emotions out. Run as far as you can....

Try what your p'doc said.

I had a bad episode of this a few days ago, I believe the day you said your message. It was because I went to a doctor for a doctors note for missing a midterm and it felt like the doctor didn’t believe that I was trying hard enough to get out of depression. He just said I should try to meditate and deep breathe (which I have already tried) and see my pdoc (which I already did). I just was really upset because if a doctor doesn’t think my condition is real, am I just faking it? So I was really upset this day and SH afterwards. I did talk to a friend and called a support line or crisis line, I don’t know what it’s called. But it helped. I felt better after talking to my friend, having some food, and doing some relaxing things.

I am feeling better now and haven’t done anything since last Thursday.