Lent

SlumberKitty · Mar 06, 2019, 04:34 PM

So it's Ash Wednesday. I really thought hard about giving up SH for Lent, but I'm too scared to. I don't want to let down God if I fail. (Maybe I am just giving myself the easy way out?!) So I'm giving up hamburgers instead. I'd like to be able to do it, and probably I could but I'm just too scared to fail.

Kit

SlumberKitty · Mar 06, 2019, 04:52 PM

Aw, what the heck. I'm going to give up SH too for Lent. It's only until April 21st. I can do this. (I hope). And may God forgive me if I fail.

piggy momma · Mar 06, 2019, 04:58 PM

I went to Mass this morning and interestingly the priest said to pick something we probably won’t succeed at, because if we pick something we know we can do we aren’t really pushing ourselves to growth nor are we giving God an opportunity to work in our lives.

For me, I’m going to spend a few minutes every day just recognizing Gods presence in my life and how Hs is working to change me.

SlumberKitty · Mar 06, 2019, 05:10 PM

That's good Piggy Momma.

Trust me, giving up hamburgers isn't going to be easy either. (But easier than SH). But yeah, I decided to step out in faith and see what happens. If I fail, I fail. But if I don't, then yay! I have to trust God will help me. Kit

Buffy01 · Mar 06, 2019, 08:02 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

So it's Ash Wednesday. I really thought hard about giving up SH for Lent, but I'm too scared to. I don't want to let down God if I fail. (Maybe I am just giving myself the easy way out?!) So I'm giving up hamburgers instead. I'd like to be able to do it, and probably I could but I'm just too scared to fail.

Kit

It is lent isn't it! I almost are meat twice today. I don't know what to give up for lent! I don't have anything!

Buffy01 · Mar 06, 2019, 08:40 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Aw, what the heck. I'm going to give up SH too for Lent. It's only until April 21st. I can do this. (I hope). And may God forgive me if I fail.

Great advice!

Mar 07, 2019, 12:37 AM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

So it's Ash Wednesday. I really thought hard about giving up SH for Lent, but I'm too scared to. I don't want to let down God if I fail. (Maybe I am just giving myself the easy way out?!) So I'm giving up hamburgers instead. I'd like to be able to do it, and probably I could but I'm just too scared to fail.

Kit

What's SH?

SlumberKitty · Mar 07, 2019, 12:41 PM

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Originally Posted by ennie

What's SH?

SH = Self Harm i.e. self injury i.e. cutting, burning, head banging, hair pulling, self punching, etc.

Bill3 · Mar 07, 2019, 01:58 PM

Kit, Would it be okay if I pray for you in regard to your plan to give up SH for Lent?

SlumberKitty · Mar 07, 2019, 02:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Kit, Would it be okay if I pray for you in regard to your plan to give up SH for Lent?

Absolutely! Thanks Bill3

Mar 07, 2019, 10:35 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

SH = Self Harm i.e. self injury i.e. cutting, burning, head banging, hair pulling, self punching, etc.

Oh...[hugs].

Nechayev · Mar 11, 2019, 05:24 PM

The kind of promise made for Lent isn't the kind of promise that God would be angered by a failure of. In my tradition we have strict fasts 49% of the year, including Lent, and to be perfect keeping the fasts is known to be a dangerous source of pride. Sometimes it is made a requirement of a person to break the fast, so as to break their pride.

God will not be let down if you fail. He understands that these things are so very difficult and He is so very compassionate towards us sinners. Our willingness means a lot to Him and His grace is sufficient for our shortfallings. Forgiveness is given infinitely to those who forgive.

SlumberKitty · Mar 19, 2019, 11:52 AM

Thank you Nechayev. That means a lot.

SlumberKitty · Mar 19, 2019, 11:56 AM

I thought my therapist would be happy about my giving up SH for Lent. She was just like, it sounds like you're going to SH on Easter. I was like, well I won't on Easter day. She wanted me to commit to more time, but I was like sheesh, let me get through til then, it's still about a month away. I feel kind of crap now. I had felt pretty good about my decision and I've been doing it, by the grace of God, but now I'm just like, dejected. Kit

Bill3 · Mar 19, 2019, 04:13 PM

((((((((Kit)))))))))

What you are doing is really good, a positive and challenging step. I’m sorry that your therapist was so deflating. 😖 She is supposed to SUPPORT you in your positive projects.

I’m really disappointed in her right now. And disgusted with her. ☹️

I think that you are doing great. I think it is a really constructive project that will help you now and also in the future.

Can we be your part-time SH helpers? 😀 I think a better approach would be something like this: I’m really excited about your project and how well it is going. Great job! 😀 The main thing is to take one day at a time, but when you are ready maybe let’s also talk about how to keep your positive growth and momentum going after Lent is over. What do you think? Let me know when you are ready—I’m ready when you are!!”

(((((((Kit))))))))

Kit you are the best and you are doing great! Keep up the great work, one day at a time!

SlumberKitty · Mar 20, 2019, 11:44 AM

Thank you Bill3. Your approach was more of what I was looking for. Thank you for your support. HUGS Kit

Fuzzybear · Mar 20, 2019, 12:48 PM

((((((((((( SlumberKitty )))))))))))

SlumberKitty · Mar 22, 2019, 01:22 PM

I've been having some urges. They were pretty tough this morning, but being at work has helped distract me. I'm trying to hang onto my promise and remember that I have faith and that's going to help me get through. I think the urges I'm having are due to increased stress of taking care of my newly diagnosed diabetic cat (new feeding schedule, new food, new insulin shots, antibiotics) and just the urges of being addicted to SH. I'm trying to breathe deeply and regulate my breathing for the anxiety and just writing here where people know the struggle is real. I've still got a long way to go but I can do this. I. Can. Do. This. HUGS Kit

Bill3 · Mar 22, 2019, 02:17 PM

TODAY.You.Can.Do.This.

I hope that the new regimen goes well for your cat.

TodayYou.Can.Do.This.

Bill3 · Mar 22, 2019, 02:18 PM

TODAY.You.Can.Do.This.

I hope that the new regimen goes well for your cat.

Today.You.Can.Do.This. 👍

SlumberKitty · Mar 27, 2019, 02:54 PM

Hallucinations suck.

Possible trigger:

I've been having hallucinations about blood.

. I'm not sure if it is because I haven't SH-ed so the hallucinations are coming up, or if it is a demon trying to persuade me to SH, but anyway, it's getting to me.

Bill3 · Mar 27, 2019, 11:58 PM

For how long, and how often, have you been having them?

Mar 28, 2019, 02:08 AM

I'm so sorry you are struggling, Slumberkitty. Please know that you have a cheer squad here on PC. Hugs, caring thoughts and prayers for you.

SlumberKitty · Mar 28, 2019, 11:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

For how long, and how often, have you been having them?

I get visual hallucinations all the time...maybe 5 days out of the week. The things I see vary, but these specific ones I've been having the past couple of days. I saw my Pdoc last night who wasn't too concerned about them. He's more concerned about auditory hallucinations which I get less of. I don't see my T until April 15 so I just gotta deal with them as best as I can. Thanks for caring. Hugs Kit

SlumberKitty · Mar 28, 2019, 11:58 AM

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Originally Posted by ennie

I'm so sorry you are struggling, Slumberkitty. Please know that you have a cheer squad here on PC. Hugs, caring thoughts and prayers for you.

Thanks ennie. Thank you for caring. HUGS Kit

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