[darkpurplesecrets]

Can I hold on tonight without hurting or will I break? Something inside tells me I cannot stop but I am trying to fight. I feel afraid, but then who cares or knows? It does not matter, not tonight. I do not know about tomorrow, but not tonight. I cry within--hiding the pain to the outside so no one knows. I guess it is not important--no one has to know. It only hurts for the moment--but it relieves for awhile--tells me I am the cause of the pain and gives me something to feel other than what I am feeling. If I can make it my fault--then it is me. They always said it was my fault--???????is it???????

cami

[bchlyn]

cami... it's not your fault... that is a false message that your abusers wanted you to believe...lyn

[Rapunzel]

Cami, your feelings are important. You are listening to old voices that hurt you back then. Don't let them win. Don't let them hurt you anymore. You have the power now to stop the pain. What happened to you back then was not your fault. You didn't have the power or resources to stop them. But now you do. Your future can be anything you want it to be. Don't let them take that from you too.

[Kiya]

right here in the middle of the night with you cami - my best friend just told me the same words Rap just told you - if we can hear that enough, maybe they can become what is true and real. hold on through this night.... (opens jar of fireflies to light the darkness)

(((cami..)))

I am so sorry you are struggling right now. I see you are already doing one day at a time which is good. If need be though it helped me to sometimes go every five min. at a time. I told myself I will not SI in this five min. After I would make it then I would do it again. I do much worse if I have nothing to do. I try to keep myself as busy as possible when struglling. Cleaning and organizing works best for me. I try to scrub every last piece of dirt out of the designated room. Hope you start feeling better soon.

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((((((cami))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) It is not your fault. It never was. You deserve to be safe and free of your pain.

BB

[Christina86]

NEVER your fault. I know it hurts to believe the negative tapes in your head, just like it probably hurts to hear the positive messages that we're all saying - but don't let the negative win. You're stronger than that. I wish I could take away your pain, it isn't a nice thing to feel.

((((((Cami)))))))))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( cami )))))))))))

It's NOT your fault, they were wrong!! I agree with everything Rapunzel said

love,
Fuzzy

[sabby]

((((((((( cami ))))))))))

I'm so sorry you struggled through the night and the day with this. You are fighting so hard to win this battle, and I have all the faith in the world that you WILL win it. Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. Because you are a winner my friend.

When you are feeling low, imagine my outstretched hand to you................................................................................................. gently holding yours and letting you know that it's ok to feel what you are feeling. And it's ok to realize that those are old lies drummed into your head. You do know what the truth is, now its a matter of holding onto to that truth and making it work for you. And you will do it.....no doubt in my mind!

Sending you lots of love and comforting

xoxoxo
sabby