[selfy]

im ok, u no i am. yes i have cut pretty deep on two occasions recently thats not why im making this post.

but, idk is anyone else slightly depressed at the realisation that alot of their friends do cut. i feel so guilty. someone told me last night. i felt so bad because i knew nothing and could not stop him.

i feel so guilty and worried that i want to cut.

not very constructive is it

oh and i am trying my hardest to stop another from starting. but hey. im a hypocrite. idk
how can a person take u seriously when u say not to do it and you do it. im thinking of the scare tactic but i have tried that and idk.
all i want to do is rip myself to shreds

just idk. i guess self destruction is fun to do or something.

URGH!
come to think of it too. who else is sick of posers - those who say OMG i cut myself!!!! ooh ooh look at meeee.
*looks at supposed wound*
u stupid girl i make more of an injury from a pencil

grrr
im just so frustrated atnothing in particular
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[Cthomas]

Hey selfy. sorry your so frustrated today. anything i can do to help you? id be more than happy to listen?

PM me if you want. im here....

thinking about you.

colleen

[Soidhonia]

(((SELFY))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. One of the hardest things to give up is the need to care and help others, and keep them from harm. Unfortunately things have to happen in life that makes you the person you are to be in the future. Everyone feels a sends of guilt when someone we care for gets hurt or one reason or another, but being sympathetic should Not endager your recovery if at all possible. Your main goal is to stay stable yourself, and not try to take on too much if you are not in a stable situation yourself or feel that you are getting triggered yourself into a harmful situation emotionally. The best thing you can do for someone with emotional issues is send them to a professional, so you dont have to take on all the guilt, and you can feel that you have done the BEST thing that you can do for the person in need. Take care Selfy. Soidhonia

Selfy, it's really hard.

I'm an intern in a psychiatric hospital and I see patients with very deep wounds on their arms and such and here I am, hiding my cuts under my clothes.... I feel like a hypocrite and sometimes I feel jealous in a way... It makes me feel really sick, but sometimes I too, want to just rip myself to shreds like they did. I understand how you feel.