[suzifleshinator]

once my sister saw the scars. she freaked out and cried and i told her i was fine but promised her i'd never do it again, but i just can't stop. i don't really care much about what it does to me. mainly what other people would think about me if they knew. she's the only one who's known, and now she thinks i simply stopped. she didn't realize that it's not that easy and has no idea it's still going on.

*Your eyes must do some raining if you’re ever going to grow.*

[ErinBear]

Hi,

Stopping is a very, very hard thing. I think one of the things that makes it hard to "just stop" is that cutting is a coping tool. It may be a harmful coping tool, but it does serve a purpose. So I think we need to learn some alternate coping tools, and probably find some support, too, if we are going to stop successfully. It's a hard thing to work on alone.

There is support here, so that's one good thing. I'm wondering if you are seeing a counselor, too? That has been really helping me in coping with this. I know it can help other people too.

Take care,
ErinBear

[emwell]

Counseling is the best thing I have found that helps. It gives me a safe place to discuss such a sensitive issue. My doctor knows the difference between suicidal stuff and inappropriate coping skills. I am pretty sure I know where I learned these coping skills. As a child, I learned that if I was hurt, my parents stopped fighting. Not a good lesson to learn.

You do need to learn new coping skills as do I. You also need someone safe to discuss it with.

Just my thoughts and opinion.

<font color=white>laughter really is the best medicine</font color=white>

[suzifleshinator]

I agree with you, and I want to discuss things with someone, but I'm just a high school student, and I don't really like telling people things, especially something like this...and it seems that's the only way i'd be able to find help. I don't even feel comfortable telling my family or friends. I think about it every day but I just don't know what to do.

*Your eyes must do some raining if you’re ever going to grow.*

[itsjustme111]

It is very hard to talk about, we all understand that one. But you need some help or it will eat you up inside. There are many people trained in this, they wont judge you, just help you. Takes time to build up a trust with someone but give yourself time and it will come. You are worth getting better and at least venting this difficult time with someone whom you feel safe with. Its good that you are able to say it in here. I think its a good start. Keep your chin up and take care. We are here for u and thinking of you.

justy