Still banging my head..

It seems like such a simple thing..stop when you start to get angry and count to 10, get up leave the room,etc but still I find myself overcome with anger and there goes my head into a wall or door or I just hit myself in the head. I've recently caused a large swelling over my left eye that turned into a nasty bruise and often hit myself so hard I see light flashes and get dizzy for moments to days afterward.

I get angry and feel like I'm going to explode! I finally had a doc rx me a anxiety med for the anger(lorzipan sp) I take them off and on but normally after I've gone over the deep end. I never really know personally when I can be patient or when I'm going to snap into this stupid person. It causes me to be so withdrawn because who would want to be or around a person with such a crazy way of handling things. Everything is out of control. ..

I am sorry things are so out of control. That can feel so scary. I hope the lorazapam helps. Please try and be kind to yourself.

BB

It's important to try to replace that injurious behavior with something else. Preferably something positive. Even if you have to throw something soft or scream it is a better alternative.

Do you usually know when you are getting angry? It may help to identify your symptoms that lead up to the anger -- so you can already be thinking about that alternative positive method when you go for the impulsive reaction.

Our heads are built to take punishment but if you keep giving yourself concussions you could end up with some serious brain damage. Especially if one day you hit at a softer angle. I'm sure you have been told this before.

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I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now... I've had the anger outbursts and feelings and they can really be hard to control!

Be good to you. Be safe.

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I don't know what to tell you really..I have alot of problems dealing with anger too so if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here and so is everyone else!!! Sending lots of hugs your way!!

I had one rageful outburst that i felt so out of control i finally grabbed the tray of icecubes and after squeezing each one until i couldn't stand it anymore, i threw each one across the driveway. took my anger out on something that i couldn't really hurt any one (or me too much).

Thank you all!! Since this post, I've been focused on maintaining my anger. I haven't felt the 'skin' crawl yet. I just try to figure out what is making me angry. I'm just under a lot of stress (kids, house, job, bills, home repairs) and I'm just feeling alone. It just seems every time I make an effort twenty other things fail.

Again, thank you and I will take those of you who offered up on the offer to PM. . . I appreciate it more than you know!!!

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When you say "still", how long have you been doing this? Could be leftover Stereotypic Movement Disorder:

http://www.healthline.com/galeconten...ement-disorder

I hope not though I can remember having bouts of anger when I was younger and hitting myself in the head or bitting my tongue. It just seems a little more scary to me. I have one brother who is severely retarded (he's diagnosis has changed many times over the years from Autism to Cerebral Palsy and now Schizophrenia thrown in the mix) and one who was diagnosed with Aspergers. That just seems like a bigger can of worms. I always mention to any doc I see about hitting and/or banging my head but this is the first doc who has given me anything other that prozac or celexa or seemed to try to treat the anger.

Ugh. . . I always hate going because I feel so stupid. I should just be normal.

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