[breakdown156]

I actually LIKE pain. It's something that I can understand. I do it to hush the demons.

I cut to focus when my
brain is racing.
I cut to make physical
what I feel inside.
I cut to see blood
because I like it.
I don't like to cut,
but I can't give it up.

I'm a freakin' masochist, and I hate it. I get pleasure from pain. I've tried the rubber band thing, but all that did was bruise and swell up my wrist, without nearly as much satisfaction.
...I really need help...

[Ryder]

I know how you feel. I did it all the time and I look like I've faught with ten lions...

I eventually got SERIOUS help- was put in hospital and they kpt me from doing it- I guess I saw the light and haven't done it for a few months... Doesn't change the fact that I love it, too. I have serious urges but then go out for a walk or something- are you sleeping ok? Lack of sleep triggers me badly.

You're not alone!

[x_BabyG_x]

Its not sick hun, your not alone in this!

Are you seeing anyone for it?

babyg xXx

[SelfHarmLove]

If you're sick then we're all sick lol, we all mostly feel this way so you're not by yourself and you have us to be yourself with, don't hide anything here, we won't judge.

[breakdown156]

yes... my dad was talking to me and telling me that he was going to have me put in a treatment center for like a month or something...

and no, i have terrible sleeping patterns. usually 3 hours a night.
and i see a counselor once every 2 weeks.

[mlpHolmes]

I found hospitals to be a Relief Refuge.I read the above posts & agree 100% w/ them, you are not alone.In the hospital experts will teach & help you learn techniques, coping thoughts & coping strategies to deal with those demons when they come around. Getting help w/ my T & the hospital - saved my life. My focus on life is different. I'm happier, my life is good, oh yes I still have urges,craving, bad depressions, but now I am in more control.

[Monkey15]

oh my god, I know exactly how you feel.
the only problem with me is I got help, but it never worked. I still cut, and have been for two years, and still going. another problem with me though, is I like being a masochist. O.o

[breakdown156]

Monkey15_______ yeah, i hear you! I've been cutting for over a year now, and i'm runing out of space on my arm it seems like.

I suppose that everyone likes being a masochist in one way or another.

[crazybones]

that is because its alot easier to deal with pysical pain then emotinal pain people deal with things in different ways and its not sick most people use pain as a way to deal with lives problems