[x_BabyG_x]

7 weeks free...... so why does it seem ALOT more than that ?
I checked my calander today, and though id been holding off for months, but no. At least its the longest ive gone without it in a while, its something I suppose

babyg xXx

[Cthomas]

Yeah, i hear ya, you feel like its been for ever and it hasnt.

I havent cut yet. Good for you on the 7 weeks! If i am not mistaken i might actually be at the same point.

Hope you are resisting urges today.

thank you for all your help

Colleen

7 weeks is a long time! 'Grats on that, you're doing great!

[bipolar_bear]

Congratulations on the 7 weeks. That is awesome.

BB

[Fuzzybear]

7 weeks is a long time, congrats!

[Christina86]

((((((((((babyg)))))))))))))))

7 weeks can seem like an eternity. The first few months can seem like the worst. You're doing great!

[x_BabyG_x]

Please don't lie to me for those who know, but does it really get easier? I was sat in work yesterday, bored out of my brains and all of a sudden I started thinking about it, and how the scars on my arms are fading, and I started to panic because I know they will be totally gone in a few months and the thought of them not being there really freaked me out. I know the only ones that will last are the ones on my thigh and it doesnt seem like enough

I know its a really weird thing to admit, but I feel really bare without my scars and marks, its like they make me feel comforted, and like I kinda dont know what Ii'd do without them. Does anyone else feel this way??

Thanks for all the congrats btw, its much appreciated

babyg xXx

[x_BabyG_x]

Please don't lie to me for those who know, but does it really get easier? I was sat in work yesterday, bored out of my brains and all of a sudden I started thinking about it, and how the scars on my arms are fading, and I started to panic because I know they will be totally gone in a few months and the thought of them not being there really freaked me out. I know the only ones that will last are the ones on my thigh and it doesnt seem like enough

I know its a really weird thing to admit, but I feel really bare without my scars and marks, its like they make me feel comforted, and like I kinda dont know what Ii'd do without them. Does anyone else feel this way??

Thanks for all the congrats btw, its much appreciated

babyg xXx

[Christina86]

It does get easier. Some days are bad, but it starts to fade from your mind most of the time, it fades to the background, some times its there and sometimes it isn't.

I've been "free" of it as an addiction for just over 1 year, and 4 months.

Sometimes it slips into my mind, but it doesn't stay long because you have to learn to "talk" to it, and try to figure out why you're thinking about it in the moment (like if you're stressed, or depressed). Then you try to do something positive instead.

Also, thinking about it doesn't mean you have to do the action.

Scars and marks show that you've survived a rough patch. So I think it's normal to associate some things with them, and be comforted by the fact that "you made it through".

(((((((((((((BabyG)))))))))))))))))

[x_BabyG_x]

Thanks Christina, I just feel sometimes that these urges will never go away! They are so intense at times, I feel like Im going to give in, but Im just going to have to get used to them because I have a few great things at risk here if I do, and I'll never forgive myself for throwing them away that easily!

babyg xXx

[Christina86]

Eventually the urges are processed by your brain and they seem like "silly ideas", and it's easier to avoid SI. Having motivation is always the best step, and it seems like you've got it!

[x_BabyG_x]

Well its everyone at pc who's making that happen for me, so thankyou guys!!!!!
xXx

[splitimage]

It definitely does get easier. I've been si free now for something over a year and a bit - I don't really keep super close count either. I still get urges, they're worse when I'm struggling to want to drink, but I can usually talk myself out of them pretty quickly. And yeah - I still do kind a miss having visible scars. I always used to cut in geometric patterns, and I used to like just tracing over the pattern on my arms. I have some very faint scars on my arm - I can only see them because I know where to look. I find seeing them is oddly reassuring. It reminds me that I'm not in that really bad place anymore and that I don't need to hurt myself in order to deal with my feelings.

--splitimage