[Zenobia]

I was all ready to deal with a situation at work. I practiced what I was going to say to my manager last night. I wrote down on a piece of paper the things the my T and I worked on in session so I would remember it all and get it all out without crying again. I was all set. I put on my power dress and my power jewelry. I practiced what I was going to say in the mirror. I was all set.

Then I went into work 2 hours early so that I could do my book orders and be all in place before my manager came in. (I am supposed to do my orders on thursday but I have found that if I come in friday morning before work I have all of thursday off ) So what happens? My boss comes in and lays a bunch of [censored] on me about how broke she is. How she can't pay her bills. How the company is top heavy with employees. How she is worried about payroll. All sorts of [censored] that I really shouldn't know or just plain don't want to know about how my manager and her got into an argument in her office and how she feels horrible and [censored]. Then I suggest that I don't send the order in that I was working on and she says I might as well because she is already totally [censored]. Then she starts crying about how she doesn't understand why the universe is doing this, she doesn't know what she has done to deserve this. All I can think of is the [censored] herbs I took off the shelf because they were 5 [censored] years old and she said to put them back. That is what sent me over the bend 2 weeks ago and got me crying in my manager's office. I wish I could have said to her that she is getting the short end of the stick because she isn't being honest with our customers or the people around her. But I couldn't. I sat there with a concerned look on my face and consoled her and tried to help her feel better. Then when the time came to talk to my manager I just couldn't bring myself to do it because I didn't want to ruin the good day she was having since she had such a bad day yesterday dealing with my boss. So now I am stuck with more [censored] stuck in my craw and no way to hack it out.

I wish I could have simply said "please don't talk to me about this." But I couldn't seem to get it out of my mouth. What came out is "it is ok." I am a [censored] liar because it isn't ok. It is not at all ok for her to talk about this stuff to me, laying this stuff on me like I am a junk bin to push her emotions in. And it isn't her fault because I never once said no. In fact I incouraged her with my gentle words and soft smile. ARGH!!!! I hate being a nice person.
Carrie

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{Carrie}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Sorry about your rough day. Let's hide from the world and have a party in Fuzzy's cave.
Wendy

[Fuzzybear]

To the junk bin part I can relate Sorry it's been such a rough one ((((((((((((((((((((Carrie))))))))))))))))))))

[Zenobia]

I called and requested a meeting with my boss and my manager at the same time. We are going to meet on Monday. Interesting thing is that they had a meeting today to discuss the very things that I wanted to have the meeting about. Things are going to be changing drastically at the shop. So drastically I may be out of a job. But that is ok. It is a relief. I don't think I will lose my job because I am third in seniority and I feel that my importance as an employee is at least that high. At least when it is done some of the stress will be off the boss, things will get straightened out and run better. Communication will increase. I will probably be reiterating what they already said in their meeting today but at least on monday I will have me thoughts heard and may be of some help in the final decisions. Or they will hate me and fire me on the spot. Never know. I feel ok about that thought too. Anyway...sorry I had to censor my speach so much last night. I was mildly upset as you could tell.
Carrie

[SweetCrusader]

(((((((Carrie)))))))))

I wasn't around to see your post last night, but I read it now. I'm sorry about the stress at work. I hope everything works itself out on Monday.

Angela