honestly, i'm about ready to kill someone right now. i'm so annoyed with people. last week i had a boyfriend, and last nite he decided to leave b/c he says he didn't know me too well and went into a new relationship too fast. i'd just like to thank him for doing it over the phone (sarcasm, can you tell?) so he tells me on the phone "i'm sorry, i'm sorry" yeah, i'm sure you are. he says don't do anything stupid, so what do i do? as soon as every one in the house was asleep, i get up and cut the crap out of my legs. every scar i saw i wanted it to bleed again and i wasn't happy with just that, i kept going until i could breathe again and i stopped crying. i was so scared b/c it didn't stop bleeding, it wasn't that i was afraid to die, i just didn't need to make a mess about it.

so here i am, about 12 hours later and wondering why i'm still trying at anything. i really want to talk to someone in 3D, i'm just too scared to go to anyone that could help. i don't want to be in the hospital, i just don't want to feel like this anymore. my cuts are still bleeding, just not so much anymore and i just want to strangle this guy. i don't have any friends anyway.

sorry guys, this is just a waste of your time, b/c that's all i am to this world.
one big waste of time energy and space

[kax25]

((((((SleepyHead)))))
I am sorry you are feeling so bad right now. I think it would be a good thing for you to go talk to someone in person. You do not have to tell them about your cuts if you do not want to. You are not a waste of time to us or to the world so dont you say that. We all care about you here Sleepy. Make sure you take care of those cuts on your legs because if you dont they'll get infected and thats no fun,trust me, also try to get them to stop bleeding and put on some salve(neosporine).Take care and let us know how you are doing.
Max

[Rapunzel]

Sleepy,

You are not wasting anyone's time, space, or energy or anything like that. If we are here reading and replying to your post, it is because we care about you. There is nobody forcing us to do this. In fact, my husband thinks I spend way too much time here, but I want to be here anyway.

Please do take care of those cuts, and like Max says, find someone you can talk to in 3D. Would it be possible to call your old T? I know you didn't like dealing with your mom complaining about taking you there, but you still need to go. You are worth taking care of, and you are worth having your needs met. Whatever it takes.

((((((((big hugs)))))))))) if you want them