[SweetCrusader]

Have you ever just wished you could physically cut the pain away from you?

Today I was hurting so much, missing both the guy that died and the one that married someone else. I ached so deep in my heart. I found myself wishing I could cut my heart out, cut the pain away from me. Anyone know what I mean by that?

This lead to thoughts about just cutting on my chest. I thought about cutting an X over my heart.

I didn't cut, but I wanted to so much. I just know it wouldn't fix it. I can't cut this pain away. It's not a physical thing, but sometimes it almost feels like it is something physical that I could just cut off.

I wish it were that easy.

[lenjan]

Angela, I know EXACTLY how you feel. It's part of what landed me in partial. I thought I'd try to carve something out of my stomach, though, as that's where I visualize the pain coming from and I wanted it to go away so bad.

Hang in there, girl. I'm glad you didn't give in. I'm trying to do the same. I'd say maybe we should make a promise to each other to stay safe, but I'm not sure I could keep it. :\

As a friend of mine always says -- one day at a time -- no guilt -- and move on.

Candy

[SweetCrusader]

((((((Candy))))))

[SweetCrusader]

I just noticed I didn't put a trigger icon on this. I'm sorry

[lenjan]

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[ktp]

((((Angela)))) You poor dear sweet girl. I know how you feel. I hate the physical ache and sometimes it does just feel like it would be better if you could just cut it out of you. My heart aches too, for those I've lost in my life.

Sometimes I try to justify the cutting by saying that I'm bleeding myself to make me better. I feel like if I could just let this blood out things would be better. I feel weird for even saying it, but it's true.

Take care of yourself.

******extra tight mega big squishies******** I'm so sorry for your pain.

Kimberly.

[misty]

((((((((((((((Angela)))))))))))))))) safe hugs if you want. So sorry you are feeling so much pain. I understand what you mean even though we burn instead of cut.
mlyn

[SweetCrusader]

Thank you

(((((Candy))))))

(((((Kimberly)))))

((((((Mlyn)))))))

It is nice to know that other people understand

I tend to just wish that I could cut the 'bad me' away... but it never goes..

[Rapunzel]

(((((((Angela))))))))

Do you know how much I wish that you didn't hurt so much? Yeah, I think that trying to cut away the pain is often what a lot of us want to do. It makes perfect sense to me.

[itsjustme111]

I felt your pain Angela. I am so sorry that things are this way for u right now.

I do understand how u feel. I wish I could do this on many days. Sometimes I wish to stab myself right through my stomach. And I have done this on my chest.

I wish we could take this pain away for you. We are here my friend. Sending you my love and hopes that u feel better soon.

Thinking of u always,

Justy