I don't deserve

to be on this planet. sorry but that is how I feel right now. No ones freakin fault but mine.

My f**** fault for being born

Take care.

Oh, sweetheart.

Yes you DO deserve to be on this planet. You deserve to live, and you even deserve to be happy!

I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Let me know if I can do anything to help you.

(((((((((((((sweet fuzzybear))))))))))))))

Angela

thanks.... sorry about that post. It is my self hatred coming out again. Mike is going away on business for a week and I have just had a blood test for something that might be serious.... and like the ....... bear I am, I had put it off for a long time. It isn't life threatening though

My apologies to anyone I might have upset on this website. This is not directed to anyone in particular, but I really feel I can't say anything sometimes...... and that is back to my icky childhood again.

sorry sorry sorry

Take care,
Fuzzy

Bear..........you feel how you feel.

((Fuzzette)) I'm willing to bet I know what some of these feelings could be attached to..........I think you might know one of those reasons as well. Nothing to do with fault or anything like that.

Life is stressful right now on a lot of different fronts for you.

It is painful to hear someone you care about say they feel undeserving. I know you are deserving of being here, of being loved, of being respected, of being fortunate enough to find friends along this journey of life. You have all those things right now..........the disease is just giving you a hard time I think

Want me to kick its ***?! lol I have a friend who used to offer to do that for me if I ever complained about someone/thing........he's jump right in with 'I'll go kick their *** if it will help you feel better!' .........I'd come back with 'that's awfully sweet of you to offer and that makes me feel better but no one or no thing is getting any *** kickings today.'

Be nice to the bear please. I for one am not into bear bashing. I think there are even laws against certain treatments of bears! So be kind and do feed and water the bear please.

see? here you go and post with the connections to what is going on currently with homelife and such and you're wise to see those things..........sorry it doesn't minimize the upset though.

((fuzzette)) Like my godkids hear all the time 'use your words to express instead of throwing the bowl of mac and cheese across the floor'............good job using your words fuzzybear!

Fuzzy,

You don't have to apologize for the way you feel. We can all sympathize and accept you as you are, feeling bad and all. We just want you to know that we know the truth about you- that you ARE GOOD and DESERVING.

Sweet Fuzzybear, I just love ya to pieces! I think you're wonderful and I think of you very often and wonder what you're holding back, and how we can all help you to be open about it.

It's ok to speak up, even if you think what you have to say is "bad."

I want you to know that I'm here for you any time.

((((((safe hugs))))))
Angela

you do TOO deserve to be here *hugs*

Fuzzface - I'm sorry you are having a stinkpot time. I hope you pass your test and Mike (umm, Mike?) comes home faster than acrylic paint dries.

And like zh said, good job using your words!!!

AuntieEm

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My favorite bear deserves all the best. I wish that you could see how great your worth is, and how wonderful you are. Hope the blood test comes out well and everything else settles down for you soon.

Thanks everyone!!! ((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))

Take care,
Fuzzy

All I can say to you, Fuzzy, is:

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Of course you deserve the best of everything. Everyone here feels that way about you. Now, no more of this 'deserve' nonsense. You are loved dearly.

Hey Fuzzette!

How are you doing two and a half weeks down the road here? Feeling any more deserving now? I sure hope so dear bear!! ((Fuzzette))

The connections of things that you are putting together are amazing. I really hope you are journaling or keeping a computer diary/blog/journal or even copying posts into Word. Just some way of keeping track of this stuff.

I really think that being able to see your own words written down and the new understandings you have of situations and ppl in your life will help you to feel more deserving.

Figuring out the past hurts, connecting them to the present hurts and learning the patterns of how to avoid doing so for the future...........doesn't that sound like something worth doing? I know that if I can avoid pain I will. Learning how to do so is the hard part. Remembering how to do so in times of crisis takes practice.

It isn't easy practicing things that are hard at first.........which is why we practice!!!

To sum up this ramble (pre coffee and like I got real sleep after such a busy wknd?! hah!!) you DO deserve!! and if you are forgetting such a thing just ask here and you'll get the same answer: you ARE deserving of love, kindness and other basic human niceties.

Well said, zh! Fuzzy, I hope you believe it. You do deserve to be cared about and loved and understood, and to be able to express the way you feel and be accepted for who you are. You are quite a wonderful person/bear. You deserve to have your needs met.

Thanks LMo!

Thanks zh!! This is tough for me because deep down I still feel those bad things but I am learning that those thoughts and feelings aren't accurate. The connections I am making are helping..... thanks for your support hon on the bear's journey!

Good ramble btw

((((((((((((((zh))))))))))))))

Thanks ((((((((((((((((Wendy))))))))))))))))

I am due for another blood test this week. The results of the last test I had were high. Growl.