Good session - then next day ???

SO I had a good session with T , sorted out a lot of things - felt good afterwards - still a bit confused - but good. Acutally had an afternoon when I had no SI of SH thoughts! almost felt safe for the first time in a long time, maybe thats why.....

Today, the thoughts are back I guess this is what happens? at least I had half a day without them ! see there is hope

Yay! Hold onto that good feeling, ok? If it helps at all, perhaps talking to your T about making a tape of her voice you can play when you're feeling the urge? I know it helps some people...

Keep going Phoenix.
Well done.
Dont beat yourself up if you have a struggling day.
I had one ok day(few months ago)But because i didnt understand the feelings of being ok i wanted to SI because i understood that.So be careful.I hope i have helped in someway.

that is exactly it! you put your finger right on it! I didnt realise it until you said it - thankyou I felt ok and didnt know what to do with the feeling - I know that sounds dumb - I was waiting for the pain to come back and so wnated to si to make it come back cos I knew it would and i couldnt stand the knowiing that it would come back - its like my back prob - I have low level pain most of the time - I had an injection into my spine and felt different - couldnt put my finger on it - then I realised it was because I had no pain - it was great till the pain came back - and then it was worse cos I remembered what it was like not to have the pain - and I suppose thats the same way with this.... now I understand - thankyou

It did not sound dumb - you don't sound dumb - please don't demean yourself that way. You just didn't know, so what - welcome to being human.

But on the other hand...Yippee for you for taking the time to learn and acknowledge it - you are enough and worthy of having good feelings stay for a while. I know this b/c I have read a lot of your posts to other people and you provide so much insight and really take the time to listen and respond.

It may be scary to feel good but hopefully in time you will crave that more than the SI and be able to stay with that calmness. I know that is what I am desperately trying to learn, not having to take SI actions but just stay with whatever feelings arise.

Thanks for posting this, it helped me to remember also-

Thanks for posting this. That's actually the topic my t and I are going to discuss Monday, what hope or good might be like. I hope you are still doing well.

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I just wanted to say how nice, thoughtful and helpful you are. Thank you for being you.