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Feb 06, 2009, 04:31 PM
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i dont know what happened but i didnt cut or anything last night, watched a movie with my boyfriend, did some tarot readings for myself, and then fell asleep listening to music... all in all it was a fine night... must have been around 2 or 3 am when i fell asleep. then i remeber at 5:29 i woke up because my arm was all wet, i remember because i touched my arm then grabbed my cell to see why my arm was all wet, i couldnt figure it out... blood was all over the bed, my arm was bleeding like crazy and i was getting light headed, lucky me my boyfriend was still awake and he heard me stifle my scream so he came in to see what was going on and saw the blood...
the rest is really a haze to me, i remember him wrappin his arm around me and taking my scarf to wrap around my arm to slow the bleeding... i know i stumbled up the stairs and out to the car... he drove me to the hospital where i got stiched up... i was all weak and the doctors asked that i get a psych evaluation so i had to talk to a mental health specialist who said i wasnt suicidal so i could go home, that was good, but now im at home and i cant figure out when i cut myself... im beginning to wonder if my personalities are taking over when im asleep... i dont know what to do... not anymore... im scared about what i might do to myself...
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Feb 06, 2009, 07:35 PM
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((((((((((((iskm)))))))))))
That sounds so very scary. Thanks God your boyfriend was there. I am glad you are safe now.  Do you have a T you could talk to about this? With care, ktgirl 
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Feb 06, 2009, 08:54 PM
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was there somthing in the room that you cut yourself with? if so can you remove it ? I am glad you are safe and agree if you have a T now would be a good time to talk to them P7
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Feb 07, 2009, 12:20 AM
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At the moment I dont have a therapist, no one is accepting new clients which kind of annoyes me because I know it would help me a lot... as for things in my room that I could cut with I cant seem to find anything around besides pens, otherwise there are just books and more books, all my movies are in my boyfriends room so I know I didnt use those...
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Feb 07, 2009, 04:00 AM
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thats really strange isnt it - Im glad you are ok though and sorry that you cant find a T - this is a good place to vent if you need to - it must have been scary for you - I am glad you are ok - I know I said that twice but I mean it!
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Feb 07, 2009, 06:13 PM
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Im a little bit shaken up about the whole ordeal but I believe it will pass. The thing I dont understand is that I cant figur out what I cut with and thats really beginning to bug me. I guess in a ways it kinda creeps me out... and yes this forum is really helpful for me especially when I don't have a therapist to see...
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Feb 07, 2009, 07:43 PM
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Feb 07, 2009, 09:18 PM
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Also are you anywhere near any universities or colleges? Often times they have programs and may be a resource for you or have some ideas. I found this site if you are near Missoula - http://www.missoulian.com/articles/2.../lifelines.prt I hope you are feeling better, sounds like you have some great support in your boyfriend. I hope that you use this site to help but also find someone to talk to. Keep us informed |
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Feb 08, 2009, 01:32 PM
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my boyfriend brought up the topic to them, and they looked to see if they had space with thier therapist at the hospital but they didnt... they gave us some places to try but like I said no one is accepting new clients at this time... Im actually thinking about moving now, I talked to my boyfriend yesterday about it and he understands that here its getting really stressful for me and he wants what is best for me also... so perhaps where ever I move too will have more options in a therapist... who knows really...
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Feb 08, 2009, 10:09 PM
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I hope if you move there will be a good therapist waiting there to offer you the help you need and deserve
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Feb 10, 2009, 08:38 PM
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I hope so too but at the moment everything seems to be turning against me... its like each time I try to make a good move for me people are sent to rip down all my hopes and goals... I just sit there and let them get away with it... I watch my dreams slip away from my grasp into smoke that blows away on the wind...
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Feb 11, 2009, 08:10 AM
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I don't know what your hopes and dreams are but maybe you can write them down and break it down on what to more manageable goals. If finding a therapist is one of your top priorities and there are none available are there other people in the field that could be of some assistance right now? If moving is important to you do you know where you want to go and have you defined that. I went through a period where I was looking for a psychiatrist to prescribe meds, it seemed like even outside of Boston I could not find one. It's kinda funny now b/c there are so many but a few years later when I looked back at why it was b/c I had all these preconceived ideas of what that person should do and I was only asking a select group of people. Although they were qualified people it was not enough. When I finally told more people - not about the situation but that I was looking for someone who had experience, I was able to find one. I don't know what your insurance is and it might be random but could you look in the provider book or online and find some people. Just call them randomly and see if they are accepting new patients. I know that might not be possible and you may need to talk to a lot of people before you find one but you don't need to suffer with this. Yes, there might be challenges but if you want to overcome there are solutions, you just might need to get creative in finding them. |
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