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Old Mar 18, 2009, 09:51 AM
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Again. Urges because of whats going on.

this time its harder......back to the hiding spot

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Old Mar 18, 2009, 09:57 AM
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I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling Colleen . Anything that you want to talk about?
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Old Mar 18, 2009, 10:10 AM
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I have to deal with one of my abusers.....my brother. that B@@@@@@

he is losing one of the two homes my parents had. ( i live in one of them ) and i think hes doing something shady. I need to turn my house into my name before he comes after it. but i cant. for reasons i dont want to talk about right now.

im trapped. im paralyzed with fear of having to see him. he already lives down the block from me. I sure hope my "wonderful" parents see now how he is. I feel like ive had to work hard for everything. and will continue to have to work harder than most for anything i want.

I understand lifes not easy but a little slack will do here.

sorry guys. venting I suppose...its just that im feeling worse and worse. made an appt for T on 1st of april. Feels like i should be committed right now. Ideations of things i dont need to be thinking about, just keep surfacing.

thanks, sannah

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Old Mar 18, 2009, 10:16 AM
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I can certainly understand how this can set you on edge. I am sorry that you have this going on right now! You are not trapped! Being trapped is the worse feeling! You are not trapped!
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Old Mar 18, 2009, 10:22 AM
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Feels like ive never found myself. in the 41 years here. and when i do. i question it. I feel like Im stupid like the all told me. Like I made poor decisions that will follow me my entire lifetiime. I feel like I have failed. and time is running out.

Just feels like I cant feel right now.

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Old Mar 18, 2009, 10:36 AM
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Feels like ive never found myself. in the 41 years here. and when i do. i question it. I feel like Im stupid like the all told me. Like I made poor decisions that will follow me my entire lifetiime. I feel like I have failed. and time is running out.

Just feels like I cant feel right now.

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You are not stupid Colleen! You are very capable! Sounds like this deal with your brother is triggering you and sending you back into the past where you feel 8 yrs old or something? You are not 8, you are 41, you are very capable. Come back to the present Colleen. Your reality is here today. You are here and you are doing very well. You are not that helpless little girl right now (even though her feelings are coming back which is normal. Just make the distinction between the past and present. Her feelings have a right to be here so that they can be worked through but your reality is here now with capable, powerful Colleen who can handle anything.)
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Old Mar 18, 2009, 11:15 AM
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Thanks. But I dont feel very Powerful

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Old Mar 18, 2009, 03:25 PM
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But I dont feel very Powerful
You are, though! Just think of all the things that you take care of and accomplish every day! Now to just convince your mind of this........... Tell yourself this every day then as you go about your day successfully taking care of your business?
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Old Mar 19, 2009, 11:16 AM
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You are, though! Just think of all the things that you take care of and accomplish every day! Now to just convince your mind of this........... Tell yourself this every day then as you go about your day successfully taking care of your business?
Thanks,,,i needed this
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Old Mar 19, 2009, 11:24 AM
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Are you feeling better today Colleen? You are welcome!
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Old Mar 19, 2009, 11:30 AM
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Are you feeling better today Colleen? You are welcome!
Yes!!! Im starting to. I went back to rigorous exercise this week. and it seems to be helping. I dont feel so crappy. Still urges. still the feelings but all in all much better......

I thank you and all of you guys for helping me. I appreciate it more than you know

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Old Mar 19, 2009, 11:44 AM
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This is very good news! See how competent (and powerful) you are.........
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Old Mar 19, 2009, 11:46 AM
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This is very good news! See how competent (and powerful) you are.........
Lets not get ahead of ourselves

I do feel better. God knows im trying. I dont LIKE feeling this way. I still dont want to deal with HIM but i will in due time. in the meantime im gearing up for it. slowly.......

thanks sannah, and everyone!

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Old Mar 20, 2009, 01:59 PM
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I dont LIKE feeling this way. I still dont want to deal with HIM but i will in due time. in the meantime im gearing up for it. slowly.......
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