[SweetCrusader]

I am trying so hard to fight the urges and not ruin my 3 months of no cutting.

Feeling very, very hurt right now

Want to cut so bad I even dreamed about it last night

[(JD)]

((((sweet)))) you've been here before... you can win this time too!

Try to remember that you self-harm because others who harmed you TAUGHT you this, to feel like you deserve it, or need it to escape. Don't let them win any more. That it's coming out in your dreams means your brain is working on it, processing it, beginning to put it in the proper persepective. I'm sorry that it makes it seem so real...

Find some way to reward yourself... you are a terrific member here, and I appreciate you very much.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((((Angela))))))))))))))))))))))

Talk out the pros and cons Angela.

If you choose not to cut you continue on with three months of non SI behaviour---which is good, correct?

If you choose to cut then you get the relief and satisfaction (?? guessing here ) of SI and then what? The feeings of let down?

Just wondering what thought processes you go through with regards to each side of this matter. Would that help to do? Or make things worse?

Sorry if this is unhelpful.

Take care and keep strong sweetie. You're stronger than your feelings and urges.

[SweetCrusader]

Don't know. I'm just really hurting, and not sure it worth giving up cutting

so how, beside release/relief, does cutting help you? What are the long term benefits of engaging in this behaviour?

Short term? Relief?

Long term?

Hmmmm...........I dunno if it makes sense but then again I do not employ this method and cannot fully understand what you deal with. It would seem to me that the feelings of let down and disappointment would be greater in the long run than the feelings of relief in the short run.

Or maybe that is me projecting?

((SC))

[Mahali]

((((Angela))))

My friend. I know how much you are hurting. You give so much of yourself to so many.

People here care about you very much. You have our love and support.

Please take special care. I am here if you need me.

Big safe hugs to you.

[Daggah]

oh... I can understand. cutting once brought me satisfaction. I went 7 months without doing so, and I broke.

But you're strong. You've lasted 3 months already. There may be strong urges, but you too, are strong. A wonderful person such as yourself coul surely last even longer. Think, three months. Take it day by day. I know it's hard to follow by, but it's an effective thing for most.

I wish you luck, and give love and support,
Dagger.

Of course it worth giving up SI hon. YOU are worth better than that. Take care of Angie cuz she is so special to me, and to so many others. I know you don't feel it sometimes, but would you take my word for it for now? Someday you'll believe it for yourself!

Hugs and Kisses, Auntie Em

[HALLIEBETH87]

ok think about it like this.....if u decide to cut-accidents do happen-you don't want to end your life on accident do you? if you did, we wouldn't soon have a very GREAT therapist who understand and truly cares about people. you will be a great therapist-take care of yourself so you can help others. this is what i sometimes tell myself-I want to be a therapist 2!!! ((((((((((((SWEET)))))))))))

[Rapunzel]

(((((((Angela))))))))) Hang in there. You know where to find me if you want to talk. I hope that it all works out soon and you can have the safety and security and support that you need.

I've got 10 days, and T has been really pressuring me now to quit. I think we're close enough to being through February now, that I'm ready if you're still willing to try quitting together. Does it still count when you have that 3 month head start? We could add our time together - maybe it will add up faster that way. We could have a total of 6 months in a matter of like 6 weeks from now, couldn't we? Would it work, or is it just another one of my hairbrained ideas?
Wendy

(((((((((SC))))))))))

I can see it hurts bad. Its been hurting you badly for a while. Talk to us. We care about you!

[SweetCrusader]

Thanks everyone.

I think I have brains again today. Although things still need to be addressed.

I didn't cut

[Rapunzel]

Good job, Angela! I'm proud of you. It will get better. Please believe it, ok? And be nice to my friend.

[Mahali]

You are very brave and I too am proud of you.

Take great care of you.

[SpazKatt]

*hugs* sweet I care for you! you've done a great job keep up the good work you can get past these urges!!!

[ickydog2006]

You are doing good. I know how strong the urge is. The longest I ever made it since I started was 1 week. Whatever you choose I just want you to know I'll be proud of you.

[silver_queen]

That's great Angela that you managed to resist the urge!