It's in front of me(trigger)

Monday I was having family problems and I allowed it to get to me so I done what I could to take my mind off of cutting.So as the day went on I couldn't fight it any more and that resulted in me getting 15 stitches.Today it's been raining all day and rain always gets me down and don't feel like doing nothing but staying in bed.My anxiety is sightly high and all I can think about is reopening my wound to see my warm blood run.I'm trying not to think about it but the urges are strong that I can't push them away any more.I'm about to give in so that I can stop thinking about it.

Oh please don't. There are so many other ways to express your feelings. Trust me, i am an ex-cutter and I have survived 2 months without cutting. It can be done!

Try music or art.

look at the sticky s at the top of the page - there are some good ideas ther - hurting yourself is NOT the answer - its temporary relief only - my old T used to say short term gain long term pain and its true - you dont deserve to be hurt - there are other ways to deal with the pain - there are other ways to deal with the sadness and to feel alive.

Please DON"T hurt yourself - do somthing else - exercise - draw - paint - write it all down - draw on your arms if you must (not where the wound is ) ring someone and talk about how you feel - if you have a therapist ring them - if you have a friend ring them - or a helpline - or keep posting here - but dont hurt yourself ok

Thanks it helped for me to get that out it's just that my family wants me to who they want me to be.And I'm not happy faking it and sometimes I feel like busting lose.

I listen to music but it doesn't help and I can't draw that well.But I love to put together puzzles I've two that I haven't started on yet.

so I hope you did the puzzles - how are you going?

Less anxious and a little more calmer sometimes when it's raining i allow myself to get worked up.

good to hear - stay well