[SweetCrusader]

i'm so stupid. why do i screw everything up?

i really want to cut tonight. i'm not going to, but just wanted to share my feelings

tks for listening

[eliza]

{{{{Sweet Crusader}}}} No your not stupid at all. Many times we go through nites of wanting to hurt. I think it is terrific that you are choosing not to hurt. My thoughts and prayers are with you if you want them. Lots of {{{hugs}}}and keep resisting.

I'd have to say that you're anything but stupid. You're caring, supportive, giving, and I could go on for a long damn while. I hopw you get to feeling better. Congrats on not cutting. If you don't think you have anything to feel good about, feel good about that.

[ktp]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Angela)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

*stern look* YOU ARE NOT STUPID! Never, nope, not you, not my friend. I'm sorry for whatever happened that made you feel so badly. What do you screw up? I have never seen you screw up, only support, help, encourage, share, sympathize, empathize, and just generally make everyone feel like they're cared for.

Hope you're feeling better this afternoon.

Much love darlin,
Kimberly.

[SweetCrusader]

I just don't do well with relationships- not family, not friends, whatever.

And I'm stressing about grad school. Feel like I have no hope of ever getting in, and also stressed because it costs several hundred dollars to apply.

I am STILL unemployed and I feel like a failure over that.

I just suck at everything

[h0kie]

You're an unemployed college student? Join the club. ((((((((((Angela))))))))))

Take it one thing at a time. You can do it!

[silver_queen]

((((((((((((SC))))))))))

Sorry you're feeling this way. From what I've seen of your posts on the forums, you're definitely not stupid, but very intelligent!

[ktp]

(((((((Angela))))))))

Dear you don't suck, you're just extremely overwhelmed! You have lots and lots on your plate and even though we all like to think we're superhuman we're not. Let me tell you my story of failure for the week.....(and then you'll see the definition of "I suck" and "stupid", I should have it tattooed on my forehead!) Earlier this week, I stopped taking my meds -- had had enough. I stop taking them, I feel fine at first, 24 hours later I'm up doing everything can't sit still & 24 hours later, I'm really down -- my muscles ache, my eye is twitching, I have a headache and I have this ball of gnawing nothingness and everything at the same time in the pit of my gut. I then sleep for 12 1/2 hours straight. Next day I wake up....repeat, but feel worse. So today I take my meds. Believe it or not (big shock) I feel better.

See even us smarties do silly things sometimes. HOWEVER, I don't see anything that you described as being silly. Your life is just complicated right now. Try not to stress so much, easier said than done, I know, but just TRY...please. What will be will be, no matter how much we worry or stress.

Many blessings hon.

Take care,
Kimberly.

[SweetCrusader]

tks

(((((((((((1day, silver, ktp))))))))))))))))

You are sweeties. You always reply to me, and that makes me feel good

[HALLIEBETH87]

i luvs u and u r not stupid.

[Rapunzel]

(((((((((Angela)))))))))))

Hang in there. I'm fighting it along with you. Maybe there is strength in numbers? I wanted to too yesterday and today, but didn't want to disappoint T. My reasons were pretty stupid, but you are dealing with some significant stress. While I believe that you do better at a lot of those things than you think (or that you will), I also totally relate. It's scary. And I sure understand wanting to have a way to release and cope with the stress. You posted here, and we've talked. What other effective ways are there to cope? I need to find them too. Maybe somebody can make some suggestions? Hang in there, sweetie. I care about you, and I don't want you to hurt.
Love,
Wendy

[Fuzzybear]

Like the others have said, you are not stupid!
I know how it sucks to feel that way though

((((((((((((((((Angela))))))))))))))))

Love,
Fuzzy