[hartbroken]

My diagnosis is bipolar schizoaffective, and therefore I am hypersexual. I remember masturbating to pictures of women when I was way young. At 21 I got a hold of porn, and at age 33 I started going to an addiction counselor. I feel miserable here at 41. Sometimes I do ok, but usually I can't. I hate myself, and am very frustrated. I feel condemned and lost. I don't know where my heart is anymore. Just venting.

[ponder1973]

Originally Posted by hartbroken

My diagnosis is bipolar schizoaffective, and therefore I am hypersexual. I remember masturbating to pictures of women when I was way young. At 21 I got a hold of porn, and at age 33 I started going to an addiction counselor. I feel miserable here at 41. Sometimes I do ok, but usually I can't. I hate myself, and am very frustrated. I feel condemned and lost. I don't know where my heart is anymore. Just venting.

I hear you!

[xrecoveringsoulx]

Do not hate yourself, you sound like a lovely person, and there are probably countless good qualities about yourself that you're just having trouble recognizing in your state. Keep seeing help, they will be able to help the most. I believe in you!

[Inedible]

If you are willing to try an unusual approach ... http://www.goldenflowermeditation.com/

Either way, don't fight it directly. Observe it. Catalog what you find actually satisfying and what doesn't really do it for you. A big part of it is stress and fighting against yourself just makes it worse. Judging yourself is not helpful. If you can get to a point of accepting yourself and your habits the way they are, you can drain off a great deal of the pressure.

[Bipolar1Disorder]

Originally Posted by hartbroken

My diagnosis is bipolar schizoaffective, and therefore I am hypersexual. I remember masturbating to pictures of women when I was way young. At 21 I got a hold of porn, and at age 33 I started going to an addiction counselor. I feel miserable here at 41. Sometimes I do ok, but usually I can't. I hate myself, and am very frustrated. I feel condemned and lost. I don't know where my heart is anymore. Just venting.

So what does being bipolar have to do with it? Most men bipolar or not do the same things. I would think running around womanizing and chasing skirts would be more of a bipolar thing to do as opposed to just laying around masturbating to porn.