[LackOfConfidence]

I am in a great relationship going on five months now, with a beautiful and intelligent women. And I have no idea why, but I am absolutely intimidated by her and am consistently shy, nervous and cant help but to feel anxious around her. When we first started to have sex it was average I would say. But soon there after I began taking perscription drugs for my adult ADHD that severly lowered my libido and ultimately made me very anxious and nervous prior to any sexual activity leaving me with a severe case of ED. This lead to me feeling very embarrassed and has since been acting like a subconsious time bomb whenever we are together because I am constantly thinking about it. Its also began to mess with me mentally. Making me question my 'manhood' so to speak, and about my confidence as a heterosexual male. Because while I would say I am on the cusp of telling this girl that I love her, because I really do, I still have a hard time admitting it to myself. So it leads me to ask? Do I really know what love is? Am I afraid to truly recognize it or do I enjoy being unhappy?

I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and as a Hypochondriac.

Any input would be great, thanks!

[LackOfConfidence]

So I seem to have temporarily overcome the Performance Anxiety/ED. However, this whole episode has really thrown me into a downward sprial...Ever since questioning my manhoood, or confidence in myself as a heterosexual male I've been very fearful of the thought 'well what if you're not into women', while this seems totally irrational to me because I know I am straight, have always and only ever thought about women. It definitely brings up memories of being made fun of or being called 'gay' or 'f*g'..I know this sounds terrible but I cant but help but to think of the most extreme stereotypes and wonder if I fall into them...Its terrible because I have had several gay friends, and felt completely comfortable around them....And now I am just paranoid....

Please any thoughts are welcome.

Thanks

[ChipmunkGal]

Im sorry. I wish I could help you with this. I wish you could talk to my husband about this. He would be able to offer input. How does your lady feel about the situation? Are you comfortable enough to talk to her about it?