[hamster-bamster]

I have been heterosexual for almost as long as I have had a conscious memory of myself. I remember having many boy suitors in first grade (I still remember their names), and liking it immensely, even though I did not reciprocate. I had my first crush on a boy with whom I shared a desk in our classroom in third grade. It was reciprocated. I developed (puberty - menses, breasts and all the rest of that) very late, the latest girl in my grade level despite being several months older than median age because I was born in Nov and my parents sent me to school late. So I can tell that sexual orientation in my case has absolutely nothing to do whatsoever with hormones. It is something much more fundamental and ingrained than that. When I was in high school, having developed by then a personal philosophy of relationships that postulated that being sexually possessive is not cool, I was extremely surprised when my mom told me that in preschool I was possessive with a boy - I pushed another girl saying that that girl wanted to caress the boy in question and I wanted to be the only girl to caress that boy. I was so embarrassed and ashamed when she told me that story! At any rate, this is preschool level heterosexuality, and I have more stories at elementary school level which are my own stories from my own memory. So it does seem to have started early. How about you?

[OliversTwisted94]

Hahaha... don't be so embarrassed about doing that kinda thing in preschool

Apparently, when I was in preschool and kindergarten, I was something like that too. I went to a REALLY small school (it was a K-8 school, with less than 100 people total), and so our preschool and kindergarten teacher took both grades (around 13 kids in total) on potty breaks a few times a day, so that she wouldn't have to take individual kids. Because the teacher was a woman, all of kids- even all the little boys- went to the girls restroom. I apparently had some kinda schoolyard romance with a little boy named Benjamin. I don't remember much about it.... but apparently, every morning when we took our bathroom breaks, I would give him a kiss on the lips when the teacher wasn't looking

In addition, if a boy in my grade did something nice for me, or I did something nice for him (i.e.- sharing toy blocks or crayons) we would kiss. Sometimes, the boys would really just kiss me for no apparent reason (I don't know why; but I guess I never got mad at them. I never started any fights lol).
I didn't even know that I did that until my mom asked me if I remembered Ben YEARS later, when I was in 6th grade... and I was just like "Who???".... and that was a boy I kissed EVERY SINGLE DAY. It's not all that unusual to express affection like that when you're little.... I think...?
My mom said that I was one of those "really adorable little girls" up until I was, like, 7 or 8. (She always says, "OH, you were so cute! What happened?" LOL)
(But after that, I began chunking out a lot. After that, boys stopped being nice to me....... gee, imagine that- even 1st grade boys are really superficial )

As for now, well..... now I consider myself pansexual (that is, if I fall in love, I won't care if it's a boy/girl/transgender/hermaphrodite- as long as it's mutual, and as long as it's love ). I know that part of this may be due to my past (inappropriate) sexual experiences.
It took me a long time to accept the fact that I was interested in girls as well. (I couldn't even bring myself to change for gym class with them- I was so embarrassed, because I would just gawk at some of the girls in my grade .)
But even now, while I still find myself strongly attracted to guys (particularly older men), I find myself repulsed by them to a degree (again, probably due to my past)
I guess I haven't figured myself out yet

[hamster-bamster]

How cute, the kissing! Every day!

When I was an elementary school, several boys, all my classmates, locked me in a room and started kissing me all at the same time, and I really liked that just for the fact. Girls were all in another room of the apartment we were in, and said bad things about me afterwards.

You would think that I'd go on to have threesomes and many more somes with multiple men when I grew up, but no - my sexual experiences have all been vanilla, conservative, 1-1, and mostly matrimonial. Go figure!

[Pandoren]

I don't think things you did when you were a little child necessarily count as anything... I mean, if it wasn't really romantic or sexual, it could just be something you got the idea to do just because you "liked" that person platonically and thought that's what girls and boys do when they like each other. Or the physical feeling of a kiss might have been nice so you'd innocently do it again. I don't know...

There were a few members of the opposite sex I had some kind of feeling for when I was pre-pubescent, but really that was nothing, it wasn't even romantic, just a sort of... well, I guess the Ace community would probably call them "squishes". When I had my first romantic crush on someone of the same sex (around the age of 13?), it was a lot different. Even then I wouldn't have been in a relationship with that person and it certainly was never sexual, but that was the one that made me question what my sexuality was. It was another couple of years before I was happy to label my orientation (actually based pretty much on that one event and realising I had a romantic bias... I never had another crush again until I was in my 20s) and not until a few years ago did I find the right label...

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

I have been heterosexual for almost as long as I have had a conscious memory of myself. I remember having many boy suitors in first grade (I still remember their names), and liking it immensely, even though I did not reciprocate. I had my first crush on a boy with whom I shared a desk in our classroom in third grade. It was reciprocated. I developed (puberty - menses, breasts and all the rest of that) very late, the latest girl in my grade level despite being several months older than median age because I was born in Nov and my parents sent me to school late. So I can tell that sexual orientation in my case has absolutely nothing to do whatsoever with hormones. It is something much more fundamental and ingrained than that. When I was in high school, having developed by then a personal philosophy of relationships that postulated that being sexually possessive is not cool, I was extremely surprised when my mom told me that in preschool I was possessive with a boy - I pushed another girl saying that that girl wanted to caress the boy in question and I wanted to be the only girl to caress that boy. I was so embarrassed and ashamed when she told me that story! At any rate, this is preschool level heterosexuality, and I have more stories at elementary school level which are my own stories from my own memory. So it does seem to have started early. How about you?

for me I was born a lesbian it wasnt something I chose to be. I have always been more attracted to women/girls then men, my first crush Im told was when I was about three. I had this best friend which I would literally cry when it came to having to say good bye or if I couldnt go to "yanna's house" to play with "yanna" when we played we were always hugging and holding hands like other normal children do at that age with their friends but I apparently refused to let go of that "pretty" hand. Im told I even wanted to live with "yanna". my mom said she was constantly packing a pillow case for me to spend the night across the way with "yanna" because I would cry for her in the night. young love lol.

[hamster-bamster]

So, AL, you are like me: a deeply ingrained and early orientation.

[GogMagog]

I remember being terrified of just about everyone when I was younger, and I still kind of am. But when I was nine I had this friend named Theo. We would hang out together all the time, and we watched a lot of movies together--we'd get really involved in the universes of superheroes and science fiction people. For a while we were really into those old Sherlock Holmes movies, he'd always be Holmes and I'd always be Watson. Well, on my tenth birthday he said he had a present for me and wanted to know if I could deduce it. So I spent the day guessing random things and finally I gave up and he kissed me. But my father saw and it didn't end very well. I never saw him again but after that it never even occurred to me that I would ever be interested in girls. I've only ever had crushes since then, but I don't know. My father was so angry that I kept it hidden and I've only told two people. But I guess I've always known, if not, I've known since then.

[queenjem97]

Ever since I was little I would have crushes on celebrities, teachers, and schoolmates of the same gender, but I denied any possibility of being homosexual until this year. I would feel nervous around conventionally good-looking guys, but I never felt attracted to them. Recently, I met a really great person who helped me not care about all the negative connotations tied to homosexuality, so I've come out to a few people.

[Harley47]

For me, I remember pretty much right after the "girls have cooties" stage that I was straight. Puberty to thank for that, I suppose.

[onionknight]

Around twenty, I guess. I got tired of pretending to like guys and not being able to talk openly about crushes on girls so I just started coming out to people in order to be a more open and honest person. It was weirdest coming out to myself, but it has been two years, and I feel much more comfortable and confident about who I am because I acknowledge my queerness.