[lexxinski]

For the past couple of weeks I can't masturbate.

As soon as I start one of my parent's image pops up in my head.

Any advice on how to get rid of that?

[CANDC]

lexxinski, welcome to psych central. Sorry to hear you are feeling guilt apparently. I am not sure what the solution is. Some people choose a therapist to help them get to the root of the feelings they are experiencing. If you do exercises your energy level may be higher.

Have you considered getting into a relationship?

Many people who are actively involved in Psych Central find it helps take them out of their own problems to develop empathy for others. And their problems though still there are more manageable.

There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central. Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

[lexxinski]

Hi Candc. Thanks for the welcome and your insight. You may be right. I feel guilty that I couldn't do more things for my mother before she passed away and I blame my father for her soon departure.

Yet I also feel sort of guilty I haven't called him in a long time, he is still my father even though I dislike him. Maybe I should just call him and ask how he is doing.

[lexxinski]

I would have never thought that these two are connected somehow. Is it because Im undertaking a pleasurable activity and I feel guilty somehow? Then I would've have parents' images popping up whenever I drink alcohol. Or maybe because it has something to do with procreation.

[mountain human]

I would suggest speaking to a mental health professional if you have access to one. This issue is more than sexual I suspect. Also, don't let guilt put you back into the middle of an unhealthy relationship. Sounds like you're not ready to go there yet.

[lexxinski]

Hi Mountain human, thanks for the reply. I'v been actually seeing a psychotherapist due to my depression attack since March. There are too many issues and this one is not a priority one, I don't know if I would have time to discuss it at all, although I will mention it.

So I called my dad and no answer. Then I spoke to my niece and she told me he had been drinking for the past couple of days or maybe more. That's the exact reason I don't want to speak to him, I can't stand it when he is drunk. He has been drinking all his life and also verbally and physically abusing my mother all the time. That's why I hate him. Sometimes I feel like killing myself.

[mountain human]

Again, if interaction with family causes such intense unpleasant feelings, keeping them at arms' length seems prudent. It's good that you are able to share this with a professional. Members of this site are supportive, but one-on-one with a therapist is a great resource.

[Mike_J]

I wouldn't let your mind have the chance to put images in your mind, thanks to the internet you can put a bunch of unrelated images/videos into your eyes, focus on them and use them to push out other invented images that your mind might produce.

Your subconscious is attempting to prevent you from masturbating, and this is most likely a very effective way of doing that. For some reason, part of you isn't in the mood for it at that time or you are feeling guilty.