Unsure of sexuality

I've been having a ton of anxiety and sleepless nights obsessing over the possibility that i may be gay. This happened once when i was 16, and is happening now at 18. I've never been with a girl so keep that in mind. I always thought i liked girls, only had crushes on them, and until recently was only attraced to them. I'm not sure i was ever sexually attracted to them though. Lately ive been noticing guys more, and don't care about women. When i... do things to myself i um, finish faster and harder when i think about guys. But its a really disgusted and anxious orgasm, and i feel disgusted afterwards. I tried watching gay porn and while i wasn't disgusted, it was weird and i had no interest. It seems im only attracted to them in my fantasies, but seeing it does nothing for me. Ive never been turned on by the sight of a vagina, but do get slightly aroused when i imagine kissing a girl and taking her clothes off and stuff. I used to love boobs, and always had to check them out, same with butts. But now i feel this disconnect from women entirely. Like, i feel like i should be attracted to them, but im emotionally disconnected, and generally not interested. Also, i did some stuff with another dude when i was like 8. I can't see muself dating or liking a guy. Do you think im gay?

Hello Swaggyfishstocks: Ýa know... sexual orientation can be really confusing. The Skeezyks is something of an aging tranny... sort-of... (It's a long story...) Anyway, one thing that has become apparent over the years is that nothing related to sexual orientation (or gender identity either) is black-&-white. There are many resting places along the sexual orientation (as well as the gender identity) continuum. And wherever one may rest along that continuum is okay. The trick is to figure out where along the continuum you fall & then to be okay with it.

I don't know if you're gay or straight. Perhaps in some way you're bi-sexual? Time itself may sort this out for you. Or, in the alternative, perhaps some time spent with a skilled therapist might be in order. What the Skeezyks does think is important, based on his own personal experience is that in some way or another you take some definitive action to figure this out. For a variety of reasons I never did & in many ways it contributed mightily to the struggles I have faced over the years. I wish you all the best with your efforts...