[krashmajors]

I enjoy masturbating on a regular basis and don't feel any type of guilt or remorse about this habit. It's natural and everyone does it at some point. My wife is perfectly fine with the fact that I do it and she masturbates as well.

However, I have been somewhat confused about my masturbation sessions of late. I'm bisexual and have always been attracted to men. I haven't been with a man since I've been married and I won't cheat on my wife. Yet, I can't get the thought of performing oral sex on a man out of my head. I've done it in the past and always loved it. I particularly enjoy when a man cums in mouth. My confusion has been that when I masturbate all I can think about is eating cum. I get so turned on thinking about it and always plan to eat my own cum when I climax. However, as soon as I do, I feel disgusted and have no desire to eat my own semen. I have tasted my own cum many times and enjoyed it. I just don't understand why I feel disgusted about something that I know I enjoy.

Is it weird that I feel disgusted and is it weird that I want to do this? I'm feeling conflicted and confused and would appreciate others thoughts.

Nobody here is going to call you weird and the best that I can suggest is talking to a sex therapist about it.

Things change, we change. Maybe it was just a bad tme or outside pressures like a normal relationship is affecting you?...we couldn't tell you. But you are not weird. It's nothing that I would get worried about...sometimes our body runs the show. After all, we based a lot of our decisions on how our body reacts to things.

Sometimes when things that I do aren't appealing but later are...maybe just a phase? Then again, I really can't talk for a singleton to well. Sorry, but you are not weird.

[amandalouise]

for original poster, I wont go into graphic details because there may be young teens reading but wanted to let you know that this kind of thing is a personal choice, if it bothers you maybe take a break from doing it. I know many people who just do not enjoying the "snacking' and thats ok.

[x_BabyG_x]

Feeling disgusted? or feeling guilty about doing something that you might think society feels you shouldnt be doing?

We all have our own little fetishes, from the quirky kinks to the downright shocking. Its natural to have specific sexual urges and desires.

If you have a talk with yourself and figure out whether you are okay with doing it and that it is what you want to do in your private time, then maybe join a community where people have similar tastes to try and normalize it a bit for you? Theres a few sites out there that specifically focus on fetishes or sexual desires and you may find you are not the only one!

You may just need that confirmation off others that what you are doing is okay, to be okay with it yourself (if that makes sense!)

Hope this helps x

[krashmajors]

Originally Posted by x_BabyG_x

Feeling disgusted? or feeling guilty about doing something that you might think society feels you shouldnt be doing?

I didn't realize it but you might be right in some way. I do feel like society would frown upon this behavior (even though I'm out as a bisexual man and feel no shame in that). I guess this particular kink is something that some folks would think is out there. Maybe I am just needing some form of validation that it isn't disgusting and something others enjoy. I did some research on eating one's cum this afternoon and realized it's far more common than I ever realized. I just need to embrace my own desires and swallow this bitter pill

I don't find this disgusting at all. I would wonder if you aren't feeling guilty about fantasizing or stressed about lack of an outlet? Hard to say but as long as no one is getting hurt for real, then what you do is great and for your pleasure which enhances your mental health.

[EarthyMama]

Not disgusting at all. Are you worried that this could be a signal/trigger that you would be unfaithful to your wife? Like thinking about being with a male instead of her and maybe that thought conflicts with your values of being faithful and to cope with that you are feeling disgust....

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[Webgoji]

Originally Posted by x_BabyG_x

Feeling disgusted? or feeling guilty about doing something that you might think society feels you shouldnt be doing?

We all have our own little fetishes, from the quirky kinks to the downright shocking. Its natural to have specific sexual urges and desires.

If you have a talk with yourself and figure out whether you are okay with doing it and that it is what you want to do in your private time, then maybe join a community where people have similar tastes to try and normalize it a bit for you? Theres a few sites out there that specifically focus on fetishes or sexual desires and you may find you are not the only one!

You may just need that confirmation off others that what you are doing is okay, to be okay with it yourself (if that makes sense!)

Hope this helps x

I agree. Nothing disgusting about you or your interests.

To be honest, I think is is pretty common. It might even be somewhat typical, at least from time to time.

[Mike_J]

I think that for a lot of men, ideas that are arousing (like eating your own cum) before you climax do change once you actually climax. I think there has to be a change in a man's thought process, inhibitions suddenly come back, or something along those lines.

I wouldn't worry about it.

[December2015]

I became a social nudist 2 years ago and joined a local meet-up group . We got together to watch a football game about 6 weeks ago - naked . It was here I learned about , "jack off clubs " . Men get together , naked , for a couple of hours ( rules are in place ) and jack each other off / or solo . Probably sounds disgusting . But the idea of attending one of these really excites me . Since then I learned their are Jack off groups on line and I have been checking these out - A lot of the men are gay , some are exhibitionists , some identify a "solo jackers " . I guess I don't have a problem with masturbating but I feel guilty that I take pleasure looking at images of other men engaged in this activity . I think I might be BI-Sexual . Anybody have any thoughts about this ?

[bighands]

Originally Posted by Mike_J

I think that for a lot of men, ideas that are arousing (like eating your own cum) before you climax do change once you actually climax. I think there has to be a change in a man's thought process, inhibitions suddenly come back, or something along those lines.

I wouldn't worry about it.

Absolutely. Shoot, when you're horny, you could get aroused by screwing a dead alligator on a bus while the pope watches. After the big O, not so much.

[Webgoji]

Originally Posted by bighands

Absolutely. Shoot, when you're horny, you could get aroused by screwing a dead alligator on a bus while the pope watches. After the big O, not so much.

Put some high heels on that alligator and I'm in!

[bighands]

Originally Posted by December2015

I became a social nudist 2 years ago and joined a local meet-up group . We got together to watch a football game about 6 weeks ago - naked . It was here I learned about , "jack off clubs " . Men get together , naked , for a couple of hours ( rules are in place ) and jack each other off / or solo . Probably sounds disgusting . But the idea of attending one of these really excites me . Since then I learned their are Jack off groups on line and I have been checking these out - A lot of the men are gay , some are exhibitionists , some identify a "solo jackers " . I guess I don't have a problem with masturbating but I feel guilty that I take pleasure looking at images of other men engaged in this activity . I think I might be BI-Sexual . Anybody have any thoughts about this ?

A lot of guys I've talked to have these types of questions. It always seems to come down to the same things. Almost all guys love the D and watching it in action! Guys are visual beings. Maybe they could even have sex with another man, but it's still all about the D. On the other hand, not all guys can see themselves kissing another man or in a relationship with another man.

Personally, I think it's logical for any man to be excited by a beautiful penis during masturbation. It's a wonderful visual example of something we all love doing.

[bighands]

Originally Posted by Webgoji

Put some high heels on that alligator and I'm in!

Hi heels? Now you're just being silly!

[December2015]

Originally Posted by bighands

A lot of guys I've talked to have these types of questions. It always seems to come down to the same things. Almost all guys love the D and watching it in action! Guys are visual beings. Maybe they could even have sex with another man, but it's still all about the D. On the other hand, not all guys can see themselves kissing another man or in a relationship with another man.

Personally, I think it's logical for any man to be excited by a beautiful penis during masturbation. It's a wonderful visual example of something we all love doing.

Thanks . Helps knowing I not alone or that watching D doesn't mean I'm gay .... something I've tried to identify about male sexuality that excites me is the active nature of the man . i.e. aroused D and just the way men's sexual response is primitive in it's quest for release . I watched two guys kissing on the beach this past summer . ( nude beach ) And I thought - I should be at least surprised by this ...but I wasn't . I thought , gee that's very tender and sexual at the same time and I thought that I haven't felt that with anyone - man or woman , for such a long time , and the memory of it .... well it was great . I'd like to feel that again .

I've also thought , that's a beautiful penis - so I guess that's Ok . I never really explored my sexuality in depth ( had many partners ) . I'm not a kid anymore but I'm not altogether without feelings either .

I have a therapist and have been reluctant to share this with him as I think it might diminish his respect for me - and I think he is sort of bored with me at this point and wants me to leave .

Do you think I could go to one of these jack off clubs for a session and not leave feeling like I'm a depraved sinner ? That I could really enjoy it without feeling guilty ?

I think I missed having a close male relationship in adolescence and this is giving me a feeling of bonding in a way that I couldn't then .

Ok , thanks again .

[bighands]

Originally Posted by December2015

Do you think I could go to one of these jack off clubs for a session and not leave feeling like I'm a depraved sinner ? That I could really enjoy it without feeling guilty ?

What would your wife think of you going to one of these clubs? Fantasy is all well and good but that's a bit more in my opinion. Besides, if you feel bad after solo masturbation, how are you going to feel after doing that?

Just my $.02.

[December2015]

Originally Posted by bighands

What would your wife think of you going to one of these clubs? Fantasy is all well and good but that's a bit more in my opinion. Besides, if you feel bad after solo masturbation, how are you going to feel after doing that?

Just my $.02.

Oh , I'd feel awful ( somehow I think that could be why I'd consider it )

[December2015]

Originally Posted by bighands

What would your wife think of you going to one of these clubs? Fantasy is all well and good but that's a bit more in my opinion. Besides, if you feel bad after solo masturbation, how are you going to feel after doing that?

Just my $.02.

My wife and I have been separated for 18 months . She doesn't seem to care what I do / or don't do . Big part of why I left . I'd like to know someone cares about me and my welfare . However that is expressed , sexual , emotional , or other .

What has really thrown me off the rails is realizing how I have substituted these needs by doing therapy for three years . Since my therapist suggested I think about ending our relationship I've discovered how much it has meant to me . I'm angry with myself for feeling this way and knowing I can't hold him responsible at all .... he is "professional " detached and objective - this is his role . I feel like I was manipulated into trusting him and allowing myself to experience these feelings ... and now our "bromance" is over and he won't accept any responsibility for it's ending ? All this feels very junior high school I think ... but my reality is that I grew really close to him through this work and I feel very disappointed ? confused ? I can't stay / and I don't want to go / and I don't want to continue because I don't want him to think I'm not strong enough to get along on my own .

Can anybody help me sort this out ?