Tired of the uncertainty

I am a married celibate male. I masturbate. A lot. I also have a same sex attraction. Since age 10, the hallmark age. Since sex with my wife is impossible because she is frigid, medically induced, I masturbate I feel guilty. Although I try to validate the practice as biological necessity. I am religious. That makes it worse. Could I perform in bed with a female ? Probably. Not my wufe though. Divorce is not an option. My masturbation tends to revolve around self love, some male porn, etc. I guess my question is .... Is my masturbation healthy ? I am chronically Hypersexual. May be pathologically involved. Putting that aside, I need assurance I'm pursuing a mentally healthy practice. Thanks !

Actually I think I may be suffering from a persistent genital arousal disorder. I am diagnosed with GAD. Have RLS. Have some neuropathy. Makes sense. The chronic genital arousal that needs constant release through orgasm and ejaculation. I feel a bit better. Now, is this the cause ? This arousal is constant. Hence I seek porn. Masturbation. Etc etc etc. crazy ?