[mmiikkeeyy]

Well, I am not quite sure how to put this, but I will do my best. Straight to the point, I am A 40 yr. old male that wears adult diapers for both incontinence and pleasure. But not sexual pleasure.
I always have had a desire to wear them since about 8 years old. I was sexually abused by a relative for a short time at around age 6. I have been awkward and shy all my life and was bullied a lot. I have bipolar disorder, along with other mental health issues and physical ones as well.
When I first was suggested by my doctor to wear something for by incontinence problem, due to an accident I felt like less of a man. I did it but felt gross but didn't have much of a choice because I was always wetting myself, especially at night.
To the point, because of the anxiety issues I have , I have found that when I put one on, It Calms me down within a minute or too. I have Klonopin I can take for such attacks, but the diaper make me feel relaxed, safe and secure.
I now wear 24/7 and I have not had a panic or anxiety attack in a long time, but without them, I can't cope. It like separation anxiety.
Let me make this clear though, I don't find anything sexually arousing at all, so is this a fetish, or a means of coping? Is it ok to do this if it helps me or is it wrong? I feel ashamed of myself sometimes for doing it and my faith in god, doesn't accept it.
Anyones thoughts? I'm may not be in the right category, but am looking for some help. I get regular counseling, and have a phychiatrist but am not comfortable enough to talking about it

Help please!!!!!

[Toller]

Hi Mmiikkeeyy,

Welcome to Psych Central.

From what you say I don't think that this is sexual at all and if it helps you and not doing any harm then it is fine. It's just one way of coping, as you said it calms you down and makes you relaxed, safe and secure. There are numerous bad ways of coping and this seems harmless. Try if you can to talk to your counselor about it. I don't think it's something you should be ashamed of at all.

[Skeezyks]

Hello mmiikkeeyy: I'm sorry I cannot really comment with regard to your concern except to say that, over the time I've been here on PC, I have read a number of posts written by members who have had concerns similar to yours. So you are by no means alone in this.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

You know....if it works....go with it!

As a fetish...no. Its just a thing...your thing...own it and not worry about it.

I'm glad that it does a wonderful job for your anxiety and gives you the comfort you need....most go straight to the bottle or pills. Consider yourself a fortunate one.