Need help in the "self love" department.

I used to masturbate regularly, about 3-4 times a week. A healthy amount, I'd say. But ever since my Mom and Dad have had a falling out, I don't much feel like it. It's like my level of arousal has just taken a nose dive. My body is there, but not my mind. It like I just can't muster up the energy to get in the mood anymore. There is just this feeling in the pit of my stomach that won't let me get there anymore. I haven't done it in about a week and a half, which is a long time for me.

I'm concerned because this isn't normal for me. That and I may or may not need to get in the mood with this Hungarian guy I talk to online. We haven't done anything together yet, but I want to get there, ya know?

I don't know. What hope is there for love when the very couple you're supposed to model your love life after, your parents, is having a tough time of it?

Yes, there is. Although current stress can affect one's sex drive. How about reading some sexy books or watching some movies with a lot of sex in them?

There plenty of hope for love . Keep in mind that many people don't have a parents loving relationship to guide them. You are setting yourself up for failure if you continue to believe that your emotional health is tied up in whether or not your paerents are getting along. I am basing this warning on other posts you've made about your parents.

My mother has 6 children by 6 different men and is a raging alcoholic and was sexually abused as a child. If I lived my life based on her guidance or "example" I would be probably be dead by now

I did a lot of work on my issues caused by childhood neglect and abuse. I've grown a lot, worked through pain, and for the most part have come out the other side. I've been in a loving supportive relationship with my husband for 14 years now. I'm not saying there not time soon when I have flashbacks or regress into self defeating behaviors, but I'm able to work through it, forgive myself and get back on track.

Long story short...love is possible. PLease....Stop looking for reasons/excuses why it's impossible for you and take charge of your own emotional health.

Thank you both for replying.

TravelingLady: I did just that a few days ago. I guess I just needed a bit of time to process the new dynamics of my parent's relationship and once I began to accept that, I began feeling like my old self again (libido included).

Shazerac: You're right. I'm probably subconsciously making excuses without realizing it and it's affected me more than I ever could have imagined. I guess in a way, I was also sort of grieving the end off what was my parents' old relationship dynamic.

They are working on reaquainting themselves with one another and I suppose I should turn my attentions toward working on how I want my future life to be like.

Maybe my parents will patch things up, maybe they wont, and if they don't, I will be sad, sure. However, I need to keep my main focus on myself and how I want my own relationships to be like.

It's just that I never thought my parents would have had difficulties. I guess it's possible for any relationship, but I suppose I just wasn't prepared. No one can be, really, but I've learned that life can throw some serious curveballs your way and nothing is certain except death and taxes.