I'm a sex addict and I admit it

Bottom line I think I have a sex addiction. All I think about is sex and what makes it an addiction is that I act on the fantasies I think about. I purposely go out of my way to find a man to sleep with. I have a spreadsheet with all the men I've slept with and let me tell you it is pretty lengthy. I'm not trying to brag about how many men I can get in bed okay maybe a little, but my point is that it's a real problem for me. And I mean there's no commitment in these relationships. I just get it and go. I know that this behavior is a part of my borderline and narcissistic disorders but i think there's something more to it. Thing is, men can't resist me. Even if I let go of this addiction I would be letting down several men. I'm so ambivalent, I want to change but I don't. Can anyone late to any of this or is this totally random?

Just wanted to let you know that I hear you and that I would like to recommend this book for you to read... hoping a better understanding may help.

She Has a Secret: Understanding Female Sexual Addiction

http://www.alibris.com/booksearch?qw...*listing*cover

Don't Call It Love: Recovery from Sexual Addiction

by Patrick J. Carnes PhD

another good book

I have read several of your stories. I can relate. I am too but Im in recovery and its going well. Its very hard at first like any addiction, but we should talk further, I coud possible help you with some issuse. Remember , its like any other addiction dont be ashamed of it, it causes emptiness, its very dangerous, you can die from it, you have to hide it .(the secerts) the lies.self loathing, the high from it. Ive been there I no.

There are many things in this world that are hard.

Being a prisoner to your own appetites is one.

Knowing it while aging in your cell is another.

Doing something about it is a third..

Sharing about this personal trap is a beginning 90mph....

You are far more than what feeding this appetite does for you...far more.

With care,

Lenny

90mph, I'm exactly like you. Or, I was.. or is, I don't know! Me going out and sleeping with every man who wanted to was because I was trying to fill a void that my dad left me with. I know, such a cliche. Daddy didn't love me and now I'm a skank.
But yeah, do some soul searching and you WILL find a reason behind it. I'm bipolar so it's classic bipolar behavior, but there was still a subconscious reason for it.

I haven't had sex in 2-3 years, not since I broke up with my ex-fiance, and yes - I turn down men ALL the time. Sucks to be them!
Thing is, once enough time has passed - you forget how good sex feels, and you won't really care about it anymore. The last time I had sex (hadn't had sex with my ex for two months) I was all "OH MY! How come I don't do this more often??".

I think it's for the better that you try to end this behavior, or at least keep it at a minimum. You might be harming yourself, and you won't feel the consequences until later... like I sadly experienced. Plus, I ASSUME that you're more or less carefree about protection and safety and things like that; which can lead you into a heap of problems... like I sadly experienced. x)

completely. I love the attenton to. But I totally understand your point. you dont mean to sound narssacitic, but it dose fuel the ego. I feel the power I get when I sleep with a guy and he wants more, and the guilt I feel when Im out of there. It make you feel good for the moment, almost like drugs but eventually wears off, and you want more. Dose this sound familar???? hope you doing well !!!! I've been there , I no/. intamacy and sex are two different things.