[Porcelain_doll_2004]

I know many people have been wondering how I really am doing. That question is really a moment by moment question. I go from being fine to totally freaking out. I have been very stressed and am having a lot of issues dealing with everything. I am afraid to ask for support so this is the best go at it I have.

Sleeping/Nightmares/Bad Dreams
With this I am not really sure what is going on. Like I have stated above I have been very stressed lately. But I am going from going days with only sleeping like 1-2 hours a night then there are nights that I will sleep and then all I want to do the rest of the day is sleep. The problem is even if I do get lots of sleep it isn’t really sleep, I wake up more tired then when I went to bed. I just am not really getting a good nights sleep. When I do manage to sleep I wake up because I am getting detailed versions of Nightmares from my past. I am also getting some really vivid Bad dreams, these usually include being abused but in ways I don’t remember being abused in my past. I haven’t been reading things like this so I don’t know where these ideas are coming from but they are vivid and they scare me enough I wake up in a full panic attack. I do suffer from insomnia at times. Any suggestions to any of this would be very helpful to me.

I am not trying to complain but just have a lot on my mind, I have been wanting to write this all for a while and this is all just the highlights with things, there is still a lot more to each one of these. Thanks for listening/reading all of this.
I hope I have not caused too many issues, or been too annoying with this all. There is so much more I want to say but don’t want to ramble your ears off.
Thanks again for listening/reading. If anyone has any suggestions or ideas PLEASE let me know.
To read the full post about everything here is the link:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=110740
Doll

[billieJ]

Dear Porcelain Doll, I wish I could be more helpful re the content of your dreams, but I do hasten to assure you that you are not being annoying. Do not imagine that anyone here will think that! That's what we're here for, and this is our place to vent and describe fearful feelings as well. We trust we will not be annoying you. It just doesn't happen. Long-term psychotherapy or possibly hypnosis is the only way I know to uncover childhood abuse events. But if you've tried to recall them and can't imagine anything remotely like that, I feel like you are right. I could be wrong! Perhaps you are having sexual issues with someone particularly close or related to your family, or someone your family does NOT like! Perhaps there are sexual issues you feel a need, on some level, to discuss with your family. Perhaps there are sexual issues which are taboo in your family, but which may be becoming an issue or idea in your life. Do you have a significant other, and, if so, how does that person figure into this? Are you changing medications in some way? Will post, if I have any other ideas. Sign me, Not a Psychologist, unfortunately ~ billieJ