[Amanda1960]

Since my grandmother died who i loved dearly I have this recurring dream of me going back to the house where she and grandaddy lived. I loved that house and i could be free to play and explore the attic.

For years now I have dreamed of returning to their house trying to find any sort of clue or article that could connect me to my dead grandparents, letters, nic-nacs, etc. I go through rooms, garage and attic, looking in drawers and secret places, looking for anything that would somehow make them alive to me. Usually, I find letters or notes, books or pictures. Each dream has been harder to salvage anything from their house. and last night there was finally nothing to find and it was very sad for me. I woke up with tears in my eyes.

This dream has always made me feel good as I could always find something i could hold onto to keep my grandparents close to me. Now it seems like something has ended.

I would really like to know what this dream means and how it may pertain to my life, especially as I progress in therapy.

[ruffy]

Amanda,
I dont have any words of wisdom for you, but I pray that comfort would be yours.

[Okami]

Interesting. Im no professional at translating dreams - but the way I see it is its almost as if theyre trying to tell you that they'll always be connected to you. You don't need to keep reaching out to find nic-nacs and reminders. You can simply reach out to them at any time in your heart and mind and they'll be there for ya.

It sounds corny, but. I think really, we just grieve for ourselves when our loved ones pass because Im sure theyre off to a much, much, MUCH nicer and fulfilling place. And deep down we just don't want to let them go - which is incredibly normal. But this dream doesn't seem to signify the end as in you can't find them anymore. It seems to be that its the end of your having to search incredibly hard and more of a sign that their essence will be with you no matter what. Especially since you seem to have a lovely relationship.

I can certainly understand why you would wake up distressed from this recent dream though. But I dont think it is a bad thing! Try flourishing your bond and reach out for their presence anytime. And since you're so familiar with the dream - maybe next time you do have it, try to take control a bit. (This does take a bit of practice) Perhaps instead of seeking out things, bask in the environment and enjoy the attic.

Anyway. I wish you the best of luck through this hard and heart-wrenching time, but you are /not/ alone. Be sure to take comfort in the fact that even though their physical beings are gone, the love certainly isn't.