[calmhope]

Not sure Where to start .... Anyone know what im talking about? As a adolescent I used to sleep walk then what turned into a form of sleep I call Half awake/ Half asleep, could see my dream and the room i was in at the same time, talking, interacting until i was unable to move, breathe, scream, a heavy weight had a form of control over me. I used to pray in my head to be able to move until i would come out of a paralyzed state. When i turned 17 I began having reoccurances of sleep issues along side unable to keep myself awake in the day time. Hard to explain but it feels as though I have 30 pound weights on my wrist neck and head, ankles and eyes. This never ending feeling i HAVE TO lay down or sleep. It almost hurts to keep awake, and the only way to remove the weights is lay down or sleep. folllowing..... i begin to cry wishing i could feel normal in the daytime like i did when i was 8 yrs old. I have had periods of sleeping approx 21 hours a day and those 3 hours awake where beyond difficult. Example. having to sway side to side while brushing my teeth or showering as i stuggled to hold my eyes open and simply understand what was happening around me. Their is no reality everything is a bad blurrred illusion and nothing seems real. During this time i was diagnosed with adult ADD and was placed on adderal, been taking it for 4 years and 60%of symptoms found relief but every day is a struggle. What is wrong with me? Any help? Tired of being tired, tired of the nightmares, tired of feeling this cool rush throughout my body that hits me and i am out like a light. Help!

[yutzman]

calmhope, Ok your problem is real and, I feel, life threatening.
I'm not getting the sense that a health official or doctor has been involved, other than public health that saw you maybe once.
Is this true?
I'm not a doctor or any kind of 'public health official'....this is just my opinion....as a fellow patient...
Reach out, you have....but now is the second step.
Seek out a psychiatrist, a medical doctor (M.D.).....I feel that is important....they have only tools, but medications for recovery.
If you describe the symptoms as good as you did here, you should be on your way..............
Good luck...calmhope....but..
Post me with your results...and keep in touch...Y :-)

[Eyes of Blue]

I am truly sorry about the nightmare that your life seems to have become. You mention having nightmare type dreams. It would help greatly in finding a solution to your problems if you posted some of those nightmares with as much detail as you can remember. Today people have come to recognize that dreams do have meaning – but what many do not yet realize is that one can also interpret real life events as if they were a dream. Looking over your posted experiences, they seem to say several things from a dream interpreter’s perspective. Thinking about things in your life correctly can have a major impact upon your health – because everything begins in the mind, especially ailments.

“struggle to hold my eyes open and simply understand what is happening around me”: There is an expression, “open your eyes”- see what is really there and not just what you want to see. “I see” can mean I understand. Seeing is believing. [Was there some event in your life that you might have preferred not to be aware of, something you could not make any sense of, something you could not believe had happened ?]

“unable to keep myself awake in the day time”: Being awake would imply being fully conscious and aware. Sleeping would imply being totally unaware. [This seems to indicate having some difficulty living with some awareness. Is there something you would rather not be aware of – something you’d rather not know about or remain ignorant about?]

“everything is a bad blurred illusion and nothing seems real”: Here again we have the idea of your having difficulty in distinguishing what is real and reality from what is just illusion or fantasy. [Have you experienced something that you would not have believed to be possible? Are you perhaps holding onto a fantasy that you are beginning to realize will never be made a reality?]

“feels as though I have 30 pound weights on my wrist, neck and head, ankles and eyes”: Weight can imply feeling there is a burden upon you. A weight can refer simply to a heaviness which may be associated with depression. A weight on the wrist could suggest you are feeling a burden or a depressing feeling which could be making it difficult to do something such as getting up in arms, i.e. getting angry at something. Could some burden or depression be making you feel more at risk? (weight on the neck) Weight on the head could suggest that you sense that a burden or depression is your responsibility. [Is there someone you could talk to about how you feel?]

“It almost hurts to keep awake”: Does being fully conscious and aware of reality, aware of the real facts or truth about something cause you a lot of emotional pain? Do you feel your only option is to lay down, i.e. lie down on the job – not actively deal with an issue that causes such emotional pain if you were to recognize the facts or truth about it ?

“tired of feeling this cool rush throughout my body that hits me”: A feeling of coldness can suggest feeling unloved. In your case, you may be dealing with this feeling by quickly falling asleep – putting yourself into a state of oblivion so you need not feel anything anymore.

[Was there some significant event that occurred shortly before your sleep issues began? If so, how did you deal with it? Can you relate to any of these questions?]