[raphael4]

First in a series of dreams on this subject:

My Fiance and I have been together for about six years when I had this dream and were still together for another year even after:

(The breakup):

We seem to be visiting her sister. We are at her sisters house; My Fiance and me are in the living room it is dark in there but there is a light on in the kitchen where her sister is standing watching us. My girl and I start to argue and this time it is worse than any other we have had. I am trying to catch up to her so we can be face to face but she turns away from me every time.
Suddenly I hear music playing from the stereo; it is the kind I like but my Fiance doesn't. I can sense at this point that we are seriously breaking up.

Fade to:

(Support and finding a new job):

I am standing in a town square off by myself. I seem to be holding lottery tickets and I am waiting for the numbers to be revealed. Some members of my ex wife's (we have been divorced 10 years now) family; her brother and her father I notice in particular are standing in the distance looking at me. They reach out offering comfort and hugs, but I still sense a distance between us.
Then, Apparently I win the lottery and I find myself walking towards a warehouse and I'm not carrying lottery tickets but I'm carrying a box, as I look into the box I can't see what is inside of it as I put it through a window handing it over to someone.

Fade to:

(I am moving on):

I am with a new girlfriend (I can sense that we have a good relationship we really seem to deeply care about each other). I can see that she has bleach blonde hair. We are walking together.She obviously loves me but her family doesn't because I am poor (I sense this because I see her dad going over my financials with disappointment). She and I talk about this and she wants to stay with me and I with her, but I am sensing (but don't tell her) that I think it might not a be wise decision for her sake.

Fade to:

(support and my personal improvement)

I am walking close to my sons family but still apart from them; Her father looking at me with approval after winning the lottery.
I sense that my new girlfriend and I could now be together and her family would now approve since I am no longer poor.

Fade to:

(Going to see or find my ex)

I am driving a jeep that my Fiance bought for me but I am wearing a jacket that I owned when I was married to my sons mother some ten years ago.
I can sense that I am going to see my fiance because even though she left me, she loved me when I was poor. I see a road sign pointing left (I sense that it is south).

The dream ends and I awake covered in sweat. It seems to indicate that I am going to meet her but I don't know if I actually get to her. This had to be some kind of lucid dream?

NOTE: I have rearranged parts of this dream AS THEY OCCUR in real life for my own interpretation. I have NOT changed any details.

[raphael4]

Second in a series of dreams on this subject (dreamed after she has left me):

NOTE before reading this some background info: We don't do drugs, however I do drink and she does not approve of that. My Friends in this dream do drink and smoke leaf and although I don't smoke I do not have a problem with those that do. Some of my ex-fiances family do smoke tobacco only and drink socially that is all. My Fiance has a bipolar disorder and her sister owns a truck like this for real (W/o any red stripes though). Although I don't smoke leaf, during the last year my Fiance and I were together I sometimes did with my friends when she wasn't around and had talked to her about doing it but she did not want to. This dream seems very obvious to me and now I don't smoke but I still drink some but definitely not like I was during our last year together. I drank heavily during our last year together because of my financial problems and I know this was a big problem for her. I have since mended my ways with my desire to gain self-control and have improved my financial situation somewhat.

The Dream:

(My ex with her problems):

My Fiance and me are at a party with friends. She is sitting on the couch and I am sitting in a chair next to her. I see a friend of mine sitting in a chair across from us drinking a beer on the other side of the room. Someone sitting next to her offers her something to smoke. She is hesitant but I encourage her to go ahead and she does.
Suddenly she makes strange chirping and clucking sounds. She becomes very nervous to the point of paranoia. She is under the influence as she becomes very afraid, more than she should be. My friends understand and do not make fun of her. I try to comfort her but I think she is pulling away.

Fade to:

(Her family comes to get her)

Her sister and family pull up into the front yard driving a big silver pickup truck, somehow I see some red stripes in the paint job. The truck looks like an F-350 Ford or maybe a chevy. My fiance is getting in. I am outside on the drivers side when the door opens as one of them says "Will (or "You should") come with us? I can sense that I really do want to, but I can see my reflection in the glass of the window. I see that my face reflects that it is blurred from obvious drunkenness. Feeling personal shame I realize that I cannot or should not go, I refuse and I turn and walk away as they leave.

The dream ends and I wake up covered in sweat.

Note: She is now living with her sister in Florida (South of here, but not with the sister in the first dream. She has two sisters).;refer to the first dream in this series for an explanation. As time goes on I begin to see a defined pattern.

Thoughts anyone?

[Thunder Bow]

This dream still shows that you are letting go, and moving on. Strange "Clucking Noise" and All.

[raphael4]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

This dream still shows that you are letting go, and moving on. Strange "Clucking Noise" and All.

It's true I am reluctantly moving on...but I have not...completely let go. It's like this for me. Years ago I graduated from college, but a job seemed impossibly hopeless at the time. I spent two years working low wage jobs never giving up on my dream. Two years later I walked into an engineering firm, just by chance and I was hired on the spot. It was very important to me and my patient persistence paid off.
So I realize that she is now my goal. I have changed my strategy, but I will not give up until I find her again or circumstances lead me down a different road to someone else. I might not find her, but I will find something good....Faith is my guide....

So now I will post the next dream in this series...

The strange noises she was making represent the fear she expressed to me that if she smoked it would make her paranoid...

[raphael4]

NEW******Third in a series of dreams on this subject:

I am traveling on a speeding passenger train. It is night and the train is dark inside lighted from outside from some ambient lights, probably from the light posts outside along the rails.
I am standing looking out a window for something or someone. There is a forest up ahead on the right side of the tracks as the train moves speedily toward it curving to the right. As the train comes to the forest I am looking out and I see her standing at the edge of the forest by the railing. As I come by her face to face. I am asking her to get onboard but she doesn't. She is looking toward the right in the direction that the train is traveling out of the forest, the same direction in which I am headed. The train moves speedily forward out of the forest and some distance ahead in the clearing I stop the train getting off on the right side of the train, the same side that she is on. I find myself walking back toward the forest and her, going back to her.

The dream ends and I awake before I know if I have found her. This is not the last of these dreams but I can say that in all of them I awake before I know if we are together again. This is most likely the most emotionally charged dream for me in this series.

Thoughts anyone?

I am curious about certain signals in this. ---The ambient lights....the Forest....the train heading to my left, but curving to the right...the direction she is looking....the same as mine...the direction is left for me...but to the right for her...we are both looking the same direction...but the meaning is different for each of us??