Strangely Sexual Dreams?

I have kind of had this fear of being gay for the past week. I'm straight. I've only been with men. I'm attracted to men. I've never been physically attracted to a woman. Like, I've kissed, cuddle, and been touched my girls and I don't feel anything, so I know I'm straight.

But accompanying an array of fearful thoughts, I've been questioning my sexuality.

I have NOTHING against gay people. I frikkin' love gay people! But I am straight, and I KNOW I'm straight, yet thoughts won't leave me alone.

So now I'm having dreams...

I dreamt that this guy that I used to have a crush on had a vagina.

I dreamt that this girl who has a crush on me was naked.

I dreamt that I engaged in oral sex with this female character in a book I'm reading.

I dreamt about sex with my own damn sister which led me straight into a suicidal-thought-ridden breakdown.

It's so annoying. I don't know how to make these dumb dreams go away. They leave me feeling nauseous all day. I KNOW they're just dreams, but they just make me sick.

You are not your thoughts. They are simply something that are happening in your brain. You can watch them float by as leaves on a stream... oh look at them go by... and just let them go.

Frida Kahlo! <3

But thanks for the hope... if I could only view them like that.